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day 5 of my streak for "Log in and spin the SparkPoints wheel" earned 1/9/2015day 7 of my streak for "Log in and spin the SparkPoints wheel" earned 1/11/2015day 7 of my streak for "Log in and spin the SparkPoints wheel" earned 1/11/2015is remembering: is remembering:is is remembering:is is remembering:I just weighed myself and it's the highest it's been in 15 years. I'm so frustrated. I keep pumping myself up and trying things I know I should do, but I don't follow through. I'm not sure where to go from here. So...here I am.is is realizing...Will Smith has a great vlog about this idea. Being disciplined is not punishment. Being disciplined is actually the highest form of self-love. I love you too much to let you...I always think of discipline as missing out on something, forcing, restricting. But maybe instead it's about choosing the behavior and the habits that eventually make us freer. Ah-ha...that's why I'm not feeling right. Gotta figure out this new me and get in alignment with myself.is rememberingI had my husband move my TV from my "woman room" (where I would watch for hours and eat and isolate) to above our treadmill in the garage. Last night I walked and ran for an hour just so I could watch Bachelorette! Ha! Don't judge me! But it worked. Just a noticing this morning: For me, this sober feeling is way better and lighter - emotionally and physically. This feeling of fresh air, coffee, birds, purring cats without any regrets wins every time. Last night after dinner, I put on music and danced with my kids in the kitchen then we went out and laid together on the hammock. If I'd have had wine, I would have just gone off by myself. Life is a learning process - gotta try different things out and observe what feels best. Wrote about this quote this morning. My favorite.
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id=6610241August was a rough one. Glad to start new with September. I am remembering the importance of being aware of what I say to myself about my circumstances. It has the power to make me feel trapped and panicked or empowered and loved. Day 1 of Human Guinea Pig: Exercise to Alleviate Anxiety Experiment. Using exercise as daily "medicine" and will revaluate with doctor in two months.
I ran on the treadmill this morning for 2 miles. I felt like I had more patience today at work and there were some trying moments. I also hit my steps goal while at work.
Right now I'm exhausted. Stayed late, but I'm glad I took my medicine in the morning. :)