Wednesday, June 24, 2009
So I gained a pound between two weeks ago and now. It doesn't really bother me--I'm on my TOM, so it's to be expected. Whatever. But I've been thinking about it a lot, and I'm realizing that even though I'm getting closer and closer to my weight loss goal, I'm still nowhere near where I want to be.
So here's my reconsideration: what do I want to be able to DO? What do I want to be able to SAY? I've been thinking about these things a lot lately and I don't really CARE what the scale says... it is just a number, after all. That number, although it's gone down considerably in the last year, has NOT made me happy yet. So I'm going to write new goals for myself, and times I want to achieve them by. I CAN and WILL do this.
So, my new goals for the new me?
-I want to have a body fat ratio of 25% or less (currently 31%-ish) by next summer, hopefully under 28% by the end of the year
-I want to be able to do 30 big girl pushups (2 sets of 15 or 3 sets of 10) by the end of the year (I can do maybe 3 now, haha, but I'm working hard)
-I want to NOT be able to hold an entire handful of fat from under my arm... hopefully by the end of the year again. So let's say arm circumference of under 10" (I'm currently at 12.5", I think) by the end of the year
-I want my thighs to not rub when I walk. Although they have gotten MUCH better, they still do touch and rub a little. So hopefully thighs smaller than 21" (currently 24.5") by the end of the year, and under 19" by next summer.
-I want defined abs. I know this is a rarity, and I don't want a six-pack... just nice, defined, solid abs. So a waist under 28" (currently 30.25") and abs under 35" (currently 38.5") by the end of the year, total goals waist 26" and abs 32" by next summer.
I think these goals are attainable in the time spans that I have set. I just am going to have to work really, really super hard to attain them. I think I'm willing to do that. I want others to see me as I see myself--beautiful, strong, capable. I want my friends' jaws to drop when I show up at school this fall. I want to say "This is the real me, the me that has been hidden under all of the fat since before I can even remember." And I think these goals will take me there. Wish me luck!