Falling off the wagon...
Friday, July 31, 2009
but hanging on to the edge for dear life.
That's been me for the last two weeks. It doesn't help that there's no fruits/veggies in the house, and my car is broken so I can't go to the market down the way (I mean, I could, but I'd have far too many things to walk back the .5 mile with)... but I'm trying to be more aware.
I'm trying to go to the gym every day. I missed Wednesday, and I can't go today because of my car's issues... all I need is some transmission fluid and it should be ok, but the car shop AND the repair shop on the corner don't have any. I was like WTF?! So I'm going to wait for my mom to get home so I can hopefully borrow her car to get some fluid and go to the market.
I can't seem to give up eating my favorite things. Ever since I came home, I have been eating more chocolate/Little Debbie/pudding/etc. than I have in the last three months. It's so frustrating! I don't know if I'm eating it because it's there, because I want it, because I'm hungry... I just don't know. But it tastes good.
I have a quote, though... a quote that I tell myself every time I feel like giving up or feel like it's ok to be doing these things... a quote I use to figure out when I want something because I truly want it or because it's convenient...
"A man who wants something will find a way; a man who doesn't will find an excuse." by Stephan Dolley Jr.
This is my mantra. These are the words I live by.
EDIT: Mom's letting me take dad's car to get the groceries and transmission fluid. Yay!