Friday, August 13, 2010
While I am on this journey to try to lose weight, my grandson is in the fight for his life right now. As much as I want and need this to happen, it seems rather insignificant at the moment. In the blink of an eye, the decisions we make can affect our lives. As much as my deciding that I need to exercise and pass on certain foods can affect my life, it doesn't seem as important right now.
I have always felt that during a crisis in our life, other folks lives are still on track while ours is falling apart and they just don't see how hurt you are. I guess in any given moment there are millions of people who are having some type of crisis in their life, be it a health issue, loss of a loved one, losing a job, an accident or countless other things. For everyone who isn't involved, life just keeps chugging along, but for those in the midst of some issue, life seems so unfair but it really isn't. Today things may look bleak on my side of the fence but tomorrow the sun may peak out and over time it will shine brightly again. The trick is to let the little bit of light in every day until it fills our life and shutters the darkness again.
Today, we got a little glimmer of the light-Jeremy was moved out of ICU and into a step-down unit. He is able to breathe on his own. He has had his first skin graft. He is still in a fog and the doctors don't know how much damage the concussion has done but we have a glimmer of hope.
I am still feeling bad that we aren't able to go up north and support him but hopefully we can go in a few weeks. That may be an even better time to go as the support he is getting now may fall off and we can be there to help.
I haven't been as faithful with my exercise as I should be but I am still getting some in and trying to not give into my old temptation of soothing myself with something sweet! Old habits sure do die hard. However, if I am ever to make this work, this is the time for me to pull thru and do this for me, right now. Life is always going to throw us curveballs and it is no excuse to go back to our old habits.
Life happens and we just have to deal and I am trying every day to do my very best.