Where is Sleep
Tuesday, December 27, 2011
All I wanted was some rest and now that I can have it, I can't sleep. DH and I are both wide awake-I guess in a sort of shock. We knew this day was coming and I could see dad declining but no matter what, I guess we are never really ready for death to come and steal our loved ones from us. We have been sitting here reminiscing and going over tonight. In hindsight we think he was telling us goodbye tonight. When we talked about rehab, he said he wouldn't be going. He told his nurse who was going home at 7 that he wouldn't be there when she returned on Fri. I think she must have known he didn't have long, she gave him a hug and a kiss and told him she was firm believer in the Lord and they would meet again someday.
I am glad we had the past 2 1/2 years with him. Sometimes it was very frustrating, sometimes he could be a real pill, but most times we enjoyed him and don't regret moving him from Illinois to Florida so we could care for him. We will always have our memories. If we hadn't done that, he would have had to go to a nursing home and he didn't want that. Our lives were very limited while we cared for him but we knew that it would not last forever and I am so happy that he never had to go to the dreaded nursing home. Just wish his last 3 days hadn't been so painful for him.
A very big void has been left in our life and it is going to take some getting used to but we are at peace knowing he truly is in a better place.
Thank you everyone for all your caring words - I read them to DH and we cry a little and smile a little and we will get thru this and know we are better for having been down this path.