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Roller Coaster Ride

Saturday, January 21, 2012

This past week has really been up and down for DH and myself. He has been having good and bad days and even ones that start out good may not end up like that. This Thursday was a really bad one pretty much all day long and evening just made it seem really bad as his blood pressure was up in dangerous territory and I had to give him an extra pill to get it down and then Friday morning it was too low.
My emotions are still running rampant but the good is starting to outweigh the bad. I still can lose it over the simplest things but hoping that this will continue to improve with time. I just don't understand myself - I cry over bananas! I know it sounds crazy, but I always used to look for small ones that were ripe for Dad and that is the first thing I think of when I buy them for us now. I am sure folks in Wal-Mart wonder what that silly woman is doing crying over by the bananas, but I really don't care.
A close friend went into the hospital on Tuesday with chest pain and had a heart cath on Wed evening and we went and sat with her husband while it was being done and I went to the hospital at 6:30 am Fri morning to sit with him while they did open heart surgery on her-she ended up having a triple bypass.
Another dear friend got the news that he has bladder cancer on Thursday (he and his wife kept Abbie for us while we went north for Dad's funeral). He is being sent to Tampa this coming Tuesday to see a specialist.
Maybe confronting all the health issues of those who are near and dear to me along with dealing with my own grief is not making any of this any easier and it is making me think long and hard about all of our mortality-life is fragile and we need to treat it as such.
Take care of yourseves dear friends.
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    I have a friend that coded and is on a ventilator. She is in her 80's. I suppose as we age, that we should expect the breakdown of the bodies of our loved ones. It isn't easy though.

    I am glad your friend had you there with him while his wife went through the cath and surgery. Yes, life is fragile and do your best to rest and take care of yourself and your husband.

    I will pray for your friends and husband and for you as you give of your time and energy to be a help to them.
    3326 days ago
  • CHEVY63
    So sorry that things are tough. Be kind to yourself as you continue to deal with your grief.
    3327 days ago
    when it rains it pours , the saying goes and boy you sure have had a bunch my friend. God bless and prayers emoticon
    3328 days ago
    Oh Pat...I am quite sure you weren't crying over bananas...I think they were just the trigger like that one last straw that broke the camel's back. You are just processing too much stress right now. Do take care of yourself and try to get plenty of restful sleep...you don't want to impair your immune system with DH counting on you as his dear caregiver. You have so much going on...be sure to be kind to yourself!


    3331 days ago
  • DOODIE59
    Dear Pat,
    You've have had an awful year -- there's no other way to describe it. Bad news on top of bad news. I can't help but think you are due a run of good things coming your way. I hope when you feel the need to cry that you bawl your eyes out. It's a good way to get rid of stress hormones (through your tears) -- so don't hold back. It's nature's way of easing your pain.

    I'm sending big hugs your way:)
    3331 days ago
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    I think you're onto something; grief is impactful enough to make us cry over bananas and feel our mortality, that's how profound it is and has nothing to do with us being crazy. I hope your friends recover well and dh feels better. Sorry he's going through a hard time. Make sure you're both getting good rest.
    3331 days ago
    Prayers and concern but know that soon life gets back to your normal
    3332 days ago
    New concerns for others on top of the fresh wound of your loss
    will make you cry for the simplest reason. It is all too soon to
    expect to be over the grief and you are ovewhelmed with DH's
    health as well. Let others think what they will but you will heal
    in time. Praying for all who need healing and resolution. HUGS!
    3332 days ago
    Praying for you and your DH as well as your friends. Glad that the triple bypass went well. Will continue prayers for your friend with the bladder cancer.
    Blessings and hugs,
    3332 days ago
    3332 days ago
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    Pat-I am so sorry to hear about everything going on this week. It's tough dealing with health issues and even tougher when you have just lost a loved one. I was a mess after my mom died 10 years ago. Even now when my phone rings on Monday night, I think it's my mom calling me just like she did for many years. I can only tell you that you can only take it one day at a time and that it does get easier. Take care my friend & know that you & your DH & friends are in my prayers! Kim
    3332 days ago

    I'll be praying for you. emoticon
    Dealing with some of the same problems here to.
    3332 days ago
    Whew...that is a lot to deal with at one time. I have a very ill mother and husband. With working full time and caring for their needs with doctors appointments and dealing with the unknown it can take a toll. I'm sure you have heard this, but just in case you haven't remember somewhere in there make time to take care of yourself too. So easily said so hard to do at times. I usually try to have some healthy options in portioned baggies in the fridge in case I have to grab and go. Best of luck to you...remember this to shall pass. Hopefully, everyone in you family will be healthy soon. emoticon
    3332 days ago
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