Explanation of last blog

My thoughts are rather jumbled these days and I may not give enough info-some previous blogs probably explained some of this but to all of you for your kind words of concern, I will try to explain myself a little.
Of course, yesterday I was stressed out-having the dr's appointment and needing to get to the rehab center to pick up DH. Normally my dr, who I have been seeing about 3 years, is pretty close to on time so this wasn't normal, but I didn't hear or see any commotion going on to indicate any kind of an emergency either. I got into the room pretty close to my appointment time but after the basics with the CNA, just sat and twiddled my thumbs, so to speak!! At my last visit, my fasting blood sugar was 125 so she really got on me about my diet and losing weight as my triglycerides were also high-so I took all this to heart and have really worked hard the past six months to get things in line. I truly expected her to at least mention about how my triglycerides had fallen almost 90 points and that I had lost 21 lbs on their scale (31 on mine). Not a word to me after the big lecture last visit!!! She said you are not diabetic but I need to watch that I don't become one. That was the extent of it other than saying the rest of my bloodwork was normal. My blood pressure was high and she didn't even comment on that. I go to The Wellness Center which is a gym affiliated with our hospital and have my BP read before and after I exercise and I am always in the normal range no matter who takes it so again, not sure why it was elevated here, but she didn't even discuss that with me.
I really like the internist my DH has so will switch to him. I had gone to this dr because she was a lady and I had no insurance and she gave me a huge discount for cash. She does not follow her patients if they are hospitalized now, her practice is now owned by the hospital or a large group-not sure which. I guess they are dictating things now so I am not blaming her for all of this. I am glad to have had her to care for me these past years but going forward, I want a dr I trust, who will be interested in me and can guide my care if I should be hospitalized. DH's dr even prescribed tamiflu for me this winter when we were both sick. He is such a dear, dear man. He and DH's oncologist are such caring doctors and I have all the confidence in them and their care so that is what I feel we both need.
Thanks to all who voiced their concern. I truly do normally speak up, but knowing I planned to change in August, I didn't want to cause any big stink. Sometimes, the dr's tell me I come in with a "laundry list" when asking questions for DH!
Together we are strong my Spark friends- Thanks for your comments and support.