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July UGH!

Wednesday, July 17, 2013

So far July has been the worst thing I have ever encountered in my life.I am tired of being a grown up and being the person in charge of all the hard stuff.
I lost my youngest child to suicide. He has been so troubled .He could never deal with the lose of his Father also a suicide. I pray he is at peace finally and that they are either having a grand reunion or a fist fight. My heart is broken. My daughters heart is broken. My older son remains brave.I do damage control with the people who loved him everyday. Most never knew how very haunted he was.

We also had to say god bye to a good old dog yesterday. She gave us love for 11 years .

There have been other creepy events but these are the most noteworthy.
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    2585 days ago
  • LARRI2010
    emoticon Words can only say so much.
    2651 days ago
    So, so sorry.
    2661 days ago
    emoticon I am so sorry that you have lost your son and you are going dealing with so much pain. Losing someone is the worst thing that can happen. Depression, anxiety and troubles really take hold of people sometimes and sometimes, they can't see that things will get better. :( I am also sorry about your dog. Animals are family. emoticon

    2678 days ago
    emoticon Sending prayers and positive thoughts your way!
    2678 days ago
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    2678 days ago
    You have been through a lot, such sad news, sending you my love

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    2681 days ago
    2683 days ago
    Oh my may your days be filled with the love of your lost.
    I want to experess my sorrow for your feelings at this time
    I believe in God and will pray you will be able to reconsile yourself to this hard truth.
    May God be with you.
    2685 days ago
  • no profile photo CD13828675
    ((((((Hugs)))) I swung by to respond to your comment on my blog, but in the end, all I can say is I am so sorry to hear about your losses. Your in my thoughts and prayers and healing juju is heading your way.
    2685 days ago
    2685 days ago
    I am so very sorry for your losses.
    My heart goes out to you.
    2686 days ago
    I am so sorry for all your losses. I can't even imagine what it's like to lose a child to suicide. I have a son who is bipolar, mostly on the depressed side, and when he was 19 he went into the mental health unit of our hospital twice because of his thoughts of suicide. I'm so glad he came to me and told me what he was thinking and was willing to get help. He had a plan and everything. When my kids were young and I was a single parent I went through a period where I really wanted to die. What kept me going was my kids. I made pact with God that I would hold on until my youngest son was 18 (the same one who is bipolar, I have 5 kids). He was 4 years old at the time. Of course as time went on I no longer felt that way but it took a while. I also thought at age 18 he would be able to take care of himself and my kids wouldn't need me so much. Now that they are all grown, I know that's not true. But I know the pain that drives people to think about that act of desperation, or who act on it. And I also know that the loss of your beloved dog is a great loss also. My thoughts and prayers are with you.
    2686 days ago
    Sharing doesn't lessen the pain but I'm so glad we can be there for you when you want to share.
    It sure is hard to be the grown up sometimes. emoticon emoticon
    2686 days ago
  • no profile photo CD12334347
    So sorry for your pain and loss. Make sure to take care of yourself so that you can take care of those who still need you and seek help in professionals who are there for you to depend upon so that you don't have to be the only one in charge. You deserve support too.
    2687 days ago
    2687 days ago
  • no profile photo CD14051230
    So sorry to hear about your recent losses. I hope you find the strength to carry on through these hard times.

    My thoughts and prayers are with you & your family.
    2687 days ago
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