Home as Environment: part of my journey
Saturday, September 26, 2015
My current focus on mindfulness and meditation is in fact what made me look around myself and realize that environment is so important to how we FEEL in general that this project is an important stage of my journey toward a healthy lifestyle.
Am busy (again) today moving small possessions around in my apartment: emptying my large unit that holds vases, candle holders and breakables; emptying a tall bookshelf and other items that tomorrow will be relocated, etc etc etc. Tomorrow son Mike will be here to move remaining furniture. Two weeks ago he moved several other items that I've since refilled. This project must be done in stages since everything needs to be emptied, moved and then refilled in a small apartment.
For over 3.5 years I've lived with my furniture sitting where it was plopped when I moved here... and it was not placed where I wanted it. I'd finally emptied many boxes to fill the chests and shelves, but never put up any but one (a large painting) item on walls. The walls are (ugh!) off-white, so for all this time I've never felt at home in my home. And finally, that is changing! Son Mike told me he will come for a few or several hours any weekend until I feel happy and then (oh the tears started leaking on this one!) he said, "Mom, you deserve to have a nice, comfortable home... and I'll keep helping until you look around and say everything is exactly the way you want it!" And yes, that's almost word for word. He doesn't understand why I won't part with at least half of my books, but accepts that I am who I am and that is THAT.
After only one session, my apartment already feels more homey and manageable. By next week all furniture will be in place so we can do what will really make a difference! Unbox the paintings and pictures I packed in 2009 and put them up on various walls! This is a lot of work for me (remember: fibro-gal here!) and a total joy that overrides the aches that the movements of lifting even small weights has triggered. Decided to keep ALL photos of family and friends and even my past in the computer room, to fill it with nice memories and add warmth to it. Even putting many of my still-boxed hard-cover books in the living room - a great reminder to revisit them at times when I might otherwise settle for mindlessly watching the idiot box (tv). Hope that doesn't bore you, but...
When we are on a true lifestyle journey, our physical environment does impact so much more than mere appearances. Sure, a home can LOOK 'nice enough', but if a person can make changes without expenditures to make the home environment more pleasant, the journey has fewer distractions.
Home should be a place of sanctuary, a space in this crazy world where we enter a door and can look around and feel at peace. Okay, that may not apply to those folks with small children (sure was impossible when my sons were young!), but for those of us who are empty nesters or way beyond that stage? Yes. Home can and should be a place of comfort. According to son Mike, we deserve it!