Knock on wood...

I'm not really superstitious, but I'm almost afraid to write a blog about being on day 10 of abstinence from compulsive overeating. I've stayed under my top calorie range nine days and plan on it today. I do not know what set me off to start again and am not sure how I'm managing to keep it going. I guess I need to start journaling and blogging again to figure it out. I mentioned in one of my status updates that during the day I was having tiny bursts of random joy. On the way to work I was thinking (normally I listen to audio books) and wondered if maybe those random feelings of joy are normal for "normal" people who have them most of the day. I do not consider myself depressed any more, but I'm still not a bubbly person (unless I'm drinking bubbly! But that's rare anymore, too). It's just amazing to think that these momentary feelings of joy could become longer and more frequent. Wow. They only occur during the times I have changed my diet, and that amazes me too, that what we eat can so affect our mood. Yesterday I decided I wanted what I always order from Chick-fil-a, an 8-pack of chicken nuggets with a large waffle fry. I have that meal in my favorites and knew I would still stay in my calorie range. I sat in the drive-through with full intentions of ordering it, got up to the ordering spot, saw pictures of their salads on the board...and ordered a salad. Let me tell you how absolutely, totally, astounding that was to me. Can it be that I really am finally on my journey? Knock on wood....