Appreciation...

I never really take the time to appreciate who I am or who I've become. I haven't really thought about me as an individual...being a wife and a mom always seems to group you into one.
I have always put my family first...my house first. I have always appreciated everything I do but it's always FOR them.

So now I get to think of me as an individual...and it's so much harder then I ever thought it could be...
I have pulled through a year of turmoil...and am steadily moving up the road to recovery...it has taken a long time to get here...with a lot of bumps along the way...BUT now I feel like I'm at the end of that road and taking the fork to a whole new one!!!

I must admit that I am proud of how I have come out of my shell since I have went back to work. I haven't been very outspoken in a long time...but I have taken the bull by the horns and found that it isn't as terrifying as I make it out to be in my mind.

I have a lot on my plate and I proud of how I'm handling it and making it my own. Figuring out ways to deal with problems a lot more calmly then I used to...

Binge eating was always a problem for me...usually in a time of stress...but as of now I haven't done that in 3 weeks...I haven't thought of stopping at the store to by a couple large bags of chips and some sour cherry blasters just for me. I haven't thought of McDonalds for a Big Mac...none of it has crossed my mind lately.

For all of this and more...I love who I am becoming...