I don't get it!!!
Wednesday, March 07, 2018
I am up! Every time I get on the scale it is more and more. Up twelve pounds! I eat more veggies than I ever have. I have walked more steps than I have since I nearly died a year ago. To the point the next day after more steps, I sleep the next day from being too wore out. I drink lots of water! 8 to 10 -8 oz glasses of water a day! What am I doing wrong. Today I was frustrated, missed my favorite butter pecan ice cream so had some for snacks. Just didn't feel like I should keep busting my butt for gains. Well, for someone who gave up, here I am, blogging! I don't want to give up on myself. I want to lose weight. I want to improve my health. I want to win this fight within myself. I want to believe in myself. Believe that I CAN do anything I want to do. I am not able to work anymore. I am fighting for disability. I just can't give into my life completely. I deserve to be happy and healthy. I can't change my enlarged heart, diabetes, thyroid disease, asthma and so on...lol..but I can change my weight. I just need to find my working lifestyle change. Doesn't mean I can't have my ice cream, it just means maybe a .5 cup and maybe sugar free!! See, blogging does help!!!