Struggles of quitting smoking 11-04-2019

Today I am going to be talking about the struggles with quitting smoking. Yes I am taking Chantix but I am still having some struggles. I still crave cigarettes and I still am learning to live without them. I do notice is get angrier faster and I get irritated more often. I am constantly wanting to eat everything in sight and sometimes get angry when I cannot eat what ever I want. That is not good for my diet. Being that I am 24 days into quitting smoking I thought things would be easier by now. My son is getting sick of me using my quitting smoking as "an excuse" for getting angry or for getting irritated. I am just at a loss. When I would get angry or I would get irritated I would smoke. I don't have that anymore so now I have to figure out something else to do. It just isn't easy to find something else that works. I am glad my son has never smoked and never plans to smoke. This is horrible. The hardest part isn't the cravings. I seem to be handling those alright it is the emotions I have to learn to control with something else. I used smoking to handle my emotions and my son just doesn't seem to understand that. He gets angry with me when I get angry and then we end up arguing. I am just not sure what I can do. I really am trying. With the craving and wanting to stuff my face I am chewing gum to help with that portion. What do I do to learn to control my feelings now? I am at a loss. I think that is the most challenging part for me quitting smoking. The Chantix helps with the craving and the nicotine withdraw it does not help with the anxiety and the anger and irritation that you feel when things go wrong. I am trying and this is all a learning process for me. I guess I will just have to argue with my kid a little while longer while I figure all this out. I don't have anyone to talk to because everyone I have to talk to either has never smoked or when they quit just walked away and were fine about it. They didn't have bipolar like I do and they didn't have the problems with their anger like I do. No one really understands. It really stinks that I have no one to bounce ideas off from to figure out what will work for me and what will not work for me. I guess it is hard going alone but I am glad I have the opportunity to be smoke free. I just thought I would have a little more support from my son. I didn't think that less than a month into this he would think I am being stupid for blaming my emotions on the fact that I have quit smoking.