I lost 195lbs... yesterday
Thursday, December 19, 2019
It was a near thing, but, I finally got divorced yesterday.
Still awaiting final judgement, to see how much he gets to keep scr3wing me over financially, but, at least this chapter is closed. There will be further wars with him, but, the judge was as kind to me and the kids as she could legally be with his manipulations and the advantages his refusal to work gave him.
I have my SparkFriends to thank for saving me. You guys repeatedly read what I wrote about my day (and how I felt about it, trying to avoid eating my feelings and facing them head on instead) told me to get out of my abusive relationship and I did.
Denial can be a comforting retreat, but, it's what caused me to put on that 118lbs in the first place.
I have regained about half of what I took 2 1/2 years to lose, with a ton of medication changes, being unemployed for most of the past year (food stamp benefits were barely enough to keep the kids fed, so I was just eating cheap junk and whatever my friends and family were kind enough to send over), so no food plans and meal prep like I'd been able to afford before.
So, I don't just have the Myasthenia Gravis relapse, I've also got Reynaud's, Rheumatoid Arthritis and possibly Pleurisy.
At least I have a really good neurologist and a good rheumatologist now, and my GP knows me long enough and well enough he didn't make me jump through any hoops to get the referrals in I needed.
And one of my new friends in my local support group gave me some drugs when he switched his, which will save me a couple of bucks.
I tried working at Lowe's for awhile, because I really liked stocking and it's work I could zone out, too... but, my disability has progressed far enough, I just couldn't keep it up, even on a part-time basis. I'd work six hours and half to sleep for 12 and muscles too weak to clean the house.
Anyway, things are settling in with my new job, so I didn't have to face a second eviction this year with the kids.
My credit score is inching back up, so I hope to be able to refinance my car in the new year (had to buy it from a shady lot with high interest rates because no one else would sell to me after my bankruptcy in January).
But, I'm trying to drum up side work through my colleagues, of course, to try to catch up on all of my medical and legal bills, and in case they make me pay my ex child support and a lot of it.
y'all have been awesome, and thanks to everyone who reached out to me to check up on me while I was dealing with life.
I plan to be back here regularly in the new year, logging food and resparking my weight loss.