40 day challenge
Friday, February 07, 2020
Okay, when I was early on in my journey here, I had to reclaim my sense of worth after years being married to someone who eroded my confidence and self-appreciation with constant criticism, derision and isolation.
30 victories in 30 days.
My 40 day challenge is, I suppose, similar, because it's all about making a concerted effort to recognize ME.
I'll be turning 40 in late march, and have committed to doing one cool thing for myself each day leading up to my birthday. I had hoped to do a girl's weekend in Vegas to celebrate, but, I'm too far in debt from this divorce to go further than my front door. lol.
I'm actually not big on celebrating birthdays, it's never been a deal for me, but, I thought back to my 30th, and I was so overworked and overwhelmed and underloved and undersupported, the ONE thing I asked for was to have a lowkey party in the back yard. Grab some hot dogs and chips from Sam's and just spend one day NOT working or studying, and getting to see friends and family I was too busy to see back then.
My husband told me no. He told me I wouldn't enjoy it. :-/
SO, now that my marriage has been dissolved (though not finalized yet), this seems like a good time to remember the things that make me happy and schedule them. 'some day' never comes around, gotta put a date on things. lol.
Bearing in mind my financial and physical limitations, I have been asking friends and family for ideas for my list. I'm going to print out a calendar and start assigning dates. lol.