What is stopping me from reaching my dreams?

I saw this picture and I had a deep thought. When I was a child, I would get up on my toes, and dance. I was not pretending, I was a ballerina in my mind, and in my heart. I believed it and did not question it. Today, my dream is to be so much more comfortable in my own skin, by loosing weight. In my head I can't believe that is ever who I will be. Too many attempted diets that have failed. Why can't I believe in myself now as an adult and be who I want to be?

If I woke up tomorrow and magically, I was even 50 pounds smaller. How would my day play out? Would I change my life to keep it off or would I find when offered the ice cream, I would have the will power to say, No thank you? And if I would be strong and fight to keep it off, because I would not want that weight to ever come back again, then why can't I be strong enough today, to fight for that day that I wake up 50 pounds lighter now!

I know these are random thoughts at 1:15 a.m., but maybe they hold an important message for myself. If I am so sure I would work hard to keep the 50 pounds off then. Why not start now. I should fight for my dreams. First I know that I have to be like that child, live my life like I am going to be 50 pounds lighter, to be 50 pounds lighter. I must have faith, and believe it with all my heart, mind and soul. Because I am the reason I haven't reached my dreams.