Life is a Roller Coaster
Saturday, March 28, 2020
Life is a roller coaster right now.
When hope is high and optimism peaks and I am at the top of grateful mountain, I try to shout "Yea!!!! Wheee!!!" I try to pause and take note of it being good -- beautiful fresh air, sunshine, time with my kids, working from home, my present health, bird songs, strangers commenting on our sidewalk chalk messages, being able to wake up without an alarm, having food, etc.
I know eventually it's going to go back down again. Lack of sleep due to underlying stress about the unknown, about how to prepare for distance learning, about the ever-changing expectations of my job, of the scary what-if's -- what if I get sick, what if my mom gets sick, what if my kids get sick, what if my kid gets hurt and we have to go to the hospital? Those ones will make you crazy.
So I have to just throw my hands up in the air and say "Whee!!!" even when I know the car is on its way back down because I know it's just the ride I'm on right now.
Now--the super jedi-mind move is this. Instead of being the one ON the roller coaster, I could imagine myself as the one who is watching myself on the roller coaster. I am the space allowing it all to unfold. I am bigger than the ride. I am the awareness that is everywhere. I am simply observing -- Oh, okay, here we go we're on the upswing. Oh, okay, this is when we're going down in the trough. It's all okay. It's a part of this season of a ride. it won't always be this extreme. I am the witness to it all.
This helps with the trapped, jerked-around feeling that's plaguing so many of us right now.
"Whee!!!" Here we go.