Friday, July 10, 2020
Yesterday was not a great day but I'm hoping good came out of it. I dropped out of 2 teams because I know know in my state of mind I had become an anchor to both teams. I took some quiet time last night after everyone was asleep to take time out for myself to sit and think about my life and what I did or didnt want. I decided not to ever "start over" but to take the way I think and reboot myself. Actually going back to basics. Log food exercise. Etc as I was. But. This time do it for myself and not the pressure of trying to keep up with others on a team.
Ive been on sp for 2 yrs and never took anything seriously enough to start and actually carry thru on. Ive started over and over so many times I cany count. This i feel is different. Some will understand thatd been others will just another start over
It's okay. I'm no longer letting what others think or say effect how i feel. I've always been a people pleaser. I wont rock the boat. I need to start controlling my own life . I feel I finally had my "Ahh Ha" moment. It's time to move on. With the tools here on SP that I've had access to all along. I know that it will all be better.