OCTOBER 18TH

I CALLED MY DAUGHTER YESTERDAY TO SHARE MY FEELING ABOUT THE DEATH OF MY COUSIN AND EXPECTED SOME ENCOURAGEMENT FROM HER. INSTEAD I GOT THE TALK THAT WHAT I FEEL IS DIFFERENT FOR OTHERS. I CANT EXPECT EVERYONE TO BE SAD ABOUT HER DEATH EVEN HER BROTHER WHO DIDNT COME TO HER MASS OR BURIAL. SHE REMINDED ME EVEN THOUGH MY SISTER AND I PUT FLOWERS ON GRAVES SEVERAL TIMES A YEAR THEIR ARE THOSE WHO DONT AND WONT. I AM FOLLOWING MY MOTHERS TRADITIONS AND JUST CANT STOP AND GO WITH 2020 LIFE AND JUST FORGET WHO I AM I AM OLD SCHOOL AND CANNOT CHANGE SO MY THOUGHTS ARE DONT CALL FOR SYMPATHY THEY DONT GET IT