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Saturday, October 24, 2020

I have been feeling a little overwhelmed... for rather obvious reasons. I am trying to stay in the present and not worry about the future (since I have no control over the test results), but there are times when I remember the worst case scenarios... and instead of being thankful that I have a good medical team and access to quick care.... I wallow in what if’s and possibly’s. I know, I know they. Lead no place good. I am however a natural worrier. So when the possibilities creep up on me I tend to chew on them for a while before setting them aside again. I cannot foresee the future. I cannot control the outcomes. I can only focus on the here and now and act accordingly. Until the next time I get beset by worry over the future... lol. It’s a process this letting go. And I will do it over and over again before I get back the results. I guess I am only human after all.
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  • _CYNDY55_
    234 days ago
    Sometimes there is a fine line between going dark immediately (that bump is XYZ, this is it! Gonna die!) & being blithely ignorant (hey, what’s that thing on your arm looks horrendous! Never mind, I’ll think about it tomorrow). You seem to have a good medical system in place, father, brothers, nieces supportive (& don’t forget Cooper!. And all of your virtual friends.
    236 days ago
    you can't change what was, doctors will get you through this change , hang in there
    236 days ago
  • KATIE5668
    Sounds very human to me..that waiting for results is not an easy time. As we both know..one day at a time..give it your best thas all any of us can do..and you do a great job. I would say don't worry..but I have to admit to being on that worry train more than a few times myself!
    236 days ago
    It is so hard when news is pending, I try to think about today and past good memories to keep my mind on the day and not the future ... thinking of you hugs
    236 days ago
    It's so natural to worry, and if you are like 99.9999% of us our minds JUMPS to the worse case scenario! Years ago I found a spot and of COURSE figured "it's SKIN CANCER!" It wasn't. It was precancerous, but not cancerous. Now I am dealing with a variety of skin cancer spots,,,, I'm not at all upset. LOL Life is sooo strange!!

    Hope they'll have some answers for you soon. The brain aneurysm I worried myself about SICK!! The surgery was over and done with, here I am. FINE. Well,,, LOL let's be honest fine for ME!! LOLOL
    236 days ago
    236 days ago
    emoticon I know waiting sucks.... you will know soon and then can plan a course of action if any.

    sending hugs and prayers.
    236 days ago
  • DEBBY4576
    Oh boy do I get what you are saying Chandra. I could have written this.
    236 days ago
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    Yes, you're human. There's not one thing wrong with having a thought, even letting it hang for a bit as you consider it, then deciding whether to accept it before you let it go. I think you have a good handle on things, and I'm also glad you come here to vent to us. emoticon emoticon emoticon
    236 days ago
    HUGS and yes, you are only human. Hugs and prayers to go along!
    237 days ago
    I think you are doing very well. Everything you mentioned is so normal but you do step out regardless emoticon
    237 days ago
    Mo help for you from me
    237 days ago
    The best thing to do is pray!
    237 days ago
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