"Every Monday is a fresh start"
Just a wee sad part....
I live on a street that is a block long. I live on one corner and at the other end is a Lutheran church and across the street from the Lutheran church is the Baptist church. I can see the back yard of the Baptist Church if I stand at my living room window and look left. A week ago the people from the Baptist Church stood beside the state hwy at the T other end of this road that is in front of their church and protested abortion. My friend told me when I called her Wednesday, 'You should have came in joined us.' This brought back painful memories for me. 24 years ago yesterday, I was raped. The NP told me when she told me I was pregnant also told me if I carried my baby to term, I could die, my baby could die or we both could die. I cried daily for the next 8 months! I had been preached at all my life from that very church that abortion is wrong! Then for the next 12 weeks I got preached at by my friends abortion is wrong. The medical social worker got me into a high risk pregnancy specialist who told me it was a old wives tale that if I stuck with him, we would not die. I was in my Bible daily 3-4 hours seeking God to know what is the right thing to do. My 23 year old son is the most precious thing in the world to me. Because of my experience, I will never tell a women abortion is wrong. When I told my story to my friend, She told me. 'Well if you died in child birth, then it was your time to die! At least you didn't have an abortion!' That is the worst thing you can say to any female!!!
Saturday I spent time with me son, my married brother, and my 16 year old nephew. They all made me feel so much better! My brother said every women is different. No one has the right to tell another person what to do!
Happy National Pumpkin Day!!!
Today I put last week behind me!
Yesterday I watched Maleficent part 1 & 2. I really need that little Disney Magic in my life yesterday! When I was watching the movie "Christmas Unwrapped" Saturday night on Lifetime, the main lady said she really envied the main man because he didn't lose that magic of believing of his childhood. I still had that fun magical believe until my son was born. All 3 of my son's grandparent's felt as if I need to 'grow-up' they didn't see that love of whimsical and magic is who I was. No one had the right to remove that from me. That was the core of who I was. My hearts desire was to be a parent. Now my hearts desire is to find that part of me again. I love watching movies that helps me feel that feeling inside again!
SP encourages everyone to live a healthier lifestyle. I have IBS. It causes me to have diarrhea and belly bloat. I personally think it's caused by stress. Being told 'If you died in Child birth then it's your time to die. At least you didn't abort." caused my stress levels to peak!!! As I watched the movies yesterday, I found on pinterest a list of worst foods to eat for IBS while I was looking into Low fodmap foods. I decided to start eliminating those food little by little starting Nov 1. That way I am not overwhelmed. Low fodmap said to only do their diet short term.
20/20 is a year that you can look back and say 'it was a dumpfire of a year ' or it was a year of change. The choice is yours! I found a list of fun stuff to do. #71 is have a indoor picnic. That always sounded like fun to me. Never did it!
Each day I watch a Disney show to try bring back those 'feelings'. Yesterday was the TV show Recess. I remember my son liking that show.
My Halloween fun today is making Ghostly Hard Boiled Eggs and watching a Halloween movie.
What made me smile yesterday? My son is waiting for the okay to come to qualify to buy a house, In the meantime he is looking at houses. I suggested he go look at 2 he say posted from the outside. Yesterday in the snow showers he did. It made me smile!
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