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Eight Years

Wednesday, November 25, 2020

So 2020 is blending the days together, right? I completely forgot about the date until I started seeing Spark messages. I've maintained a weight loss for eight years. That gave me pause. I never thought I would ever say that.

I didn't lose an enormous amount of weight like some but I have left the yoyo days behind for eight years. I say this as I'm waiting for my margarita pizza to be delivered.

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Besides the struggles 2020 has brought, I have struggled through the past four months going through a divorce I do not want and refinancing our house in my name.

After three failed attempts by the bank to get this right, I finally closed on the house this week. It was very surreal, signing all of those papers by myself.

I recently purchased a passion planner, a pretty planner book. My daughter talked me into buying it and I must admit, I'm enjoying it.

Each month, there is a spot to write something good that happened. I have not done that yet, until after the closing. Before I went to bed after the closing, there were tears and then I opened the book and wrote "I bought a house".

My life is unrecognizable right now. The movie Under The Tuscan Sun came to mind the day after I closed. When Frances said "I wake up in the middle of the night thinking, ‘You idiot, you’re the stupidest woman in the world. You bought a house for a life you don’t even have.’”

To which Martini talked about train tracks that were built before a train existed that could make the steep trip.

Some day 2020 will be a memory so we all need to stay strong, take care of ourselves and each other so that we can get out there again one day to kick up our heels and hug our loved ones.

As Frances also said in Under The Tuscan Sun, "Unthinkably good things can happen, even late in the game.”

My pizza is here so thank you for all of your encouragement and cheering. I wish you all a beautiful Thanksgiving and a wonderful weekend!

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  • JAWATKINS
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    So sorry your life has been upended!! Your page & posts have always inspired me! I thankful to be back on SP and be around great people like you!!
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    55 days ago
  • PATTI7MCK
    Hi Kellie, It's been awhile! I'm back on Sparkpeople and just read your post. Thinking of you. I know you are a strong, smart, creative person who will continue making a beautiful meaningful life forherself. Takegoodcare.--Patti (formerlyTeafourtwo)
    84 days ago
  • WATERMELLEN
    Congrats to you on the 8 year weight maintenance.

    And yes: divorce is tough tough tough. Surreal at times.

    Wishing you all the best in the days ahead. Better times coming.
    96 days ago
  • BROOKLYN_BORN
    Congrats on the 8 years of maintenance!
    How did we both manage to reach goal during a Thanksgiving Week? What are the chances?

    I'm so sorry for the extra stress you have encountered during an already challenging year.

    I loved "Under the Tuscan Sun"
    The determination and strength of long time maintenance will see you through this.

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    98 days ago
  • SUNNYBEACHGIRL
    8 years is good and you have worked through some difficult times this year. My wish for you is that each day is a little easier.
    98 days ago
  • NEWNANCY2012
    emoticon on eight years of maintenance!
    98 days ago
  • SEAGLASS1215
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    You have had an extra tough 2020, for sure. Like the movie quote: "Unthinkably good things can happen, even late in the game.” Things will be brighter and better eventually - take it one day at a time, moving forward, looking for the positive things always.

    Eight years - my goodness! I can barely get thru eight hours without giving in to a sugar craving, LOL! But I have made it over 22 years without smoking and that is something I never thought I would be able to say.

    I hope you enjoyed your pizza! emoticon

    Happy Thanksgiving - I know this year will be quite different but there are many things we have to be grateful for...we may have to look a little harder to find them but they are there.
    98 days ago
  • NEW-CAZ
    You've been through a lot for sure, and handled it with good grace.

    Happy Thanksgiving hun, enjoy and stay safe emoticon
    98 days ago
  • GEHUGHES
    Congratulations on 8 years of maintenance! Stay strong!
    98 days ago
  • DI_NAMIC
    You are a strong and remarkable person, Kellie. Your care for others is unstinting. Walk proud into 2021. Hug!
    99 days ago
  • MJREIMERS
    Hugs! 2020 has been extra difficult for you. I hope 2021 finds you in a better place, but as strong as ever. Congrats on your maintenance!
    99 days ago
  • REDROBIN47
    Kellie, stay strong. I too went through similar circumstances and know the fears and feelings involved. The house I bought by myself after the divorce I didn't want turned out to be a real blessing. I am still here after 25 years. Things always work out. Maybe differently than we thought they would but for the better. Keep moving forward. 2020 will be over soon and we have so much to look forward to. Have a Happy Thanksgiving and may God bless.
    99 days ago
  • LESLIESENIOR
    Happy Thanksgiving to you Kellie. I think about you so often and always send up a prayer for peace and ease and love for you. Big Hug,
    Leslie
    99 days ago
  • 7STIGGYMT
    I'm sorry that things aren't going well. Now is the time to move forward. Maybe eventually, you'll look back and see it as a blessing.
    99 days ago
  • LYNCHD05
    Kellie you are the strongest woman I know right now. What you have gone through amd how you have handled everything is beyond amazing. I wish I was there to give you a real hug my friend. You are the best!

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    99 days ago
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  • SOCCERMOM99
    I am sorry for all your pain in 2020. However your strength and perseverance will hell you thrive in 2021.stay strong as you are worth it!!!!
    99 days ago
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