Personal, yet, maybe it will help!
Thursday, January 14, 2021
"Childhood trauma can affect you for life. Right now I am dealing with it effects. A lot of the time I think I am past it and something happens to bring it to the forefront again, then I wind up hurting myself and others. Grace, we need to give it to ourselves more! Breathe. It sucks I know, but we have to go through even more hell, to get to the other side."
I wrote this as a response to a post and lately I feel like I am dealing with stuff from being a child. It feels never-ending sometimes. I suppose one can be healed and then something happens to bring too much crap back to the forefront. Time for a tune-up I think.
I think my worst personality trait is that my mouth works faster than my mind sometimes. (Or is it the reverse?) Then I say something too quickly and I wind up hurting someone, sigh! You would think I've been on this earth long enough to have a good handle on that. I mess up sometimes. It's always been hard for me to quickly apologize. Perfectionism coming into play here. I was shown that making mistakes is bad, it means you are a bad person, a screw up. Rationally I know people make mistakes and you are to learn from them. Not me apparently, this one area I mess up in a lot with a certain family member. (My Mom)
Today, I apologize today and do better in life!!!