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    WELCOME to the Dealing With Depression Team. We are glad to have you join our group of friendly and supportive members. We are here for you, and we will help you in any way that we can. Best Wishes in reaching all of your goals. Take care, and keep in touch with the team.

    2959 days ago
    Yeah, takes a while to clean up the backlog. I'm sure you'll get through it!
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    2975 days ago
    emoticon emoticon Happy St. Patrick's Day QT! emoticon emoticon
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    Hi Tammy,
    Great to hear from you. LOL yeah, you did make me smile and thanks for the compliment.
    You don't have to tell me about blowing money on smokes. I know I blew a lot as at times I could put two packs away if I wanted to.
    Well I think you already know my Dad died from complications due to smoking. Well after he died I let two weeks go by...silently thinking about it. Then I got the nerve up to tell my husband my plans. He had quit about 5 years before hand. I also told him I was going to start going to a water aerobics class also to try and lose weight, which I did and still do go to. I also fill in as the teacher when needed. Back then I felt as if I was drowning and just had to do something to help myself. Anything...I was so desparate to be saved. I think I knew then that I was the only person I could trust which really meant deep down I was the only person who could do it and had to do it to save myself.
    So I did a bunch of things all at once. I started off taking the patch which I had used before and went three months. but this time I had a very bad reaction...bad, hurtful rash and had to stop taking them. By that time 3 days had gone by and I said to heck with it...I've gone this far and I'm not turning back! I drown'd myself in healthy eating books and read and read and read. I cooked up a healthy storm to keep myself busy. I wished I had more people to cook for is how much I came up with healthy recipes and losing 19 lbs that first month. Well....if that wasn't motivation in itself....I just kept going and going...and the next thing I knew four and a half months had pasted and I had lost 50 lbs. I had started walking here at work after my shift was over until I could walk down my road. (it was Feb. when I started).
    Then I bought a bike and started biking a 15 minute stretch after walking to change which muscles I was using. By then it was the first of June. Gardening was in full swing and I spent a lot of time out there which is my #1 hobby. Yes, it's been 14 months without one puff. I know I can never....never had one puff or I will go from what I have now...back to smoking a pack to buying a carton...to gaining weight back...all because I didn't care about myself. I found one thing out that I didn't much like.
    When you treat yourself like a door mat....others feel comfy treating you like a door mat also. It's a horrible horrible place to be.
    I don't know if I answered your question about helpful tips. Keep busy...treat yourself with kid gloves...protect yourself from others hurting you. That's the last thing you need during this stressful time. Be a friend to yourself and find every strand of will power you can to get off that habbit.
    oh...almost forgot. I use a plastic substitue cig. It's called "Endit" and you can find it cheap at drugstore.com. Basically it's a hand mouth keep busy kind of thing but I still use it today. I think I paid $5 for two and they last forever. I would definately try that. I am not a fan of prescription drugs for quit smoking. I did sign up to 5-6 non smoking groups. You know the ones that say get support here...blah blah blah.....I didn't have much luck there. It seemed they all already had people they knew and didn't reach out to new people coming into the group. But by a few months I stopped trying to hook up a friendship with anyone there. One month into all of this I found Sparkpeople and I don't have to tell you how great the support is here. It saved my life. I am sure of it. Those people that didn't realize one kind word here....encouragement there.....it all added up for me personally.
    Know when your ready....I'll be here for you as will the others.
    Best of luck!
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    2983 days ago
    Hi Tammy! I stopping in to visit with you!!! How you been?

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    2984 days ago
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