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I am a 30something pill pusher and I have reached that point, I think, where it is time to stop whatever it is I am doing wrong with this life and fix it. I realize that my husband believes I am beautiful just as I am, however, I don't believe that. And, as important as it is to know that he believes it, I think it is also very important for me to believe it as well, if I am ever going to feel confident or good about myself.

I have been trying to figure out just what I am DONE with and I am so DONE with the following:

I am DONE with:
*Never feeling good about myself
*Always been tired
*Wearing loose clothing because I want to hide
*Looking in the mirror and only seeing ugly looking back
*Putting everyone before me
*Worrying about what everyone thinks about me all the time
*Not taking care of myself
*Not being able to do things because of my weight

***I started this journey back in March of 09. At that time, I lost about 35 - 40 lbs. I don't know what happened, but somehow I lost my balance on that horse and fell out of the saddle. I've maintained about an overall loss of 20 lbs or so, but I want to lose more. I have a goal of 60 lbs by November. That's about 40 or so weeks from now. That's only 1.5 lbs per week. Surely, that's possible, right?


Member Since: 3/7/2009

Fitness Minutes: 5,911

My Goals:
My ultimate goal is to lose 120 - 150 lbs. My first goal, however, is to get back to the weight I was when I got married. I lost 30 - 40 lbs that year when I realized I couldn't fit into my dress (OH NO!), but since then I have gained that PLUS another 40 lbs or so.


My Program:
Since I started this yesterday, I have been thinking about what I want to do. I want to increase my water, but I don't want to lose out on the other drinks that I like. Funnily enough, since my decision to do this yesterday, coke is tasting too sweet. Dunno what that is all about, but I am going to use it to my advantage. :)



Personal Information:
I am ultimately from Arkansas, born there and lived there very briefly, but for the last 29 or so years, I have been here in Texas, the most beautiful place on earth. I am married to a gorgeous Viking from Norway and wonder every day what it is he sees when he looks at me.


Other Information:
I love history and I love to read. I also love things that most people would consider morbid. Cemetaries hold a particular interest for me. There is so much history there.
I love Harry Potter, Twilight, Buffy, Charmed, Bones, Criminal Minds, my family (should have put that earlier, huh? lol), and many, many other things.




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