Trickle Down Affect
Wednesday, May 20, 2009
Well, your are going to be reading a lot of blogs on Boot Camp since it was our bonus challenge. This is my second attempt to get this done since my computer decided to send my first one into cyber space. I hate when that happens. And, it was so good. LOL
I have to admit that I did not come close to finishing the first boot camp. I was so overwhelmed with not only being a new member, had joined a bazillion teams, never posted to a message board nor was I even close to being adept at navigating the site. I could go on with excuses but what would the point be? I was a quitter.
When the offer was initiated to join the current boot camp, I really had to think long and hard about it. Finally, I did join and things started happening. Right off the bat, we were asked either to blog or put something on our homepage regarding boot camp. Since I never had been happy with the way my page looked, I opted to concentrate my energy there.
I decided to put everything out in the open. First came the accountability log for each day of the camp. I had already put my weight ticker on my page which was something I thought I would never do. But it's kind of cute and non obtrusive so not to painful to do. The Sunday boot camp started, I called my niece to come over to take my measurements. Never thought that would happen, but they are there for the world to see. I won't tell you it didn't hurt or that I didn't cry out when I heard the numbers come out of her mouth. Oh, my, I can still feel my ears ringing - LOL I can actually look at them now without to much discomfort. I only wish I had done them in the beginning.
Next, I was sitting there typing out my goals for May. I hate making goals and hate even more putting them in writing. Then I have to do them, and everyone will know if I don't make them. What do I say to that? So what. I'm human and not perfect. That was a shock to me. I might miss a target but it's ok. It may take me a little longer to get it done. I may have just been wrong on my estimated time frame. Oh, my, I had to learn that I'm not always right, either. Ouch!
So with the boot camp, I am becoming even more transparent than I ever thought I could. With every little challenge that I complete, I get stronger. The walls are coming down, brick by brick. Every time a brick falls off, there is a terrific feeling of being lighter. It's so cathartic.
Every time a brick falls, a new layer is revealed. Brick by brick, challenge by challenge, the new me is revealed. I've always been a very positive person. I'm rarely unhappy. I really do love myself. But, I can tell you that as work through the boot camp and bonus challenges, I am allowing others to see how becoming transparent to the world and mainly to myself is such an awesome experience and feeling. Carrying around secrets like your weight and measurements may seem small, but all those small little secrets get to be really heavy.
So, I can only say that the boot camp has helped me to rid myself of "stuff" that was holding me back. So, by becoming less afraid of becoming transparent I can only hope that I am able to better help others do the same.
I guess that's the reason I called the blog the Trickle Down Affect. Boot camp helps me so I can help others who can then help more people. Hopefully, it never stops.