What are you willing to let others see?
Thursday, August 20, 2009
I was listening to a song this morning on U-Tube. One I've listened to quite a lot lately, but I heard a line today that I had previously missed. "What are you willing to let others see?" Wow. That one hit pretty close to home.
When I joined Sparks 8 months ago and began Stage 1 of 4 of their program to help me get started on this journey, I was apprehensive to say the least. They were asking me to do things right off the bat that I was uncomfortable with...starting with putting my weight loss goal on a little ticker. Oh, my, gosh!!! I didn't even want to weigh myself much less put it out there for the whole community to see. What would people think of me? Well, as it turned out, I got no negative responses. Heard no gasps. Didn't die of embarrassment. Actually, I felt kind of good.
Next, they urge you to put your picture on your SparkPage. I really fought this one because no one would knew that I had a disability. I would be anonymous. I'm not ashamed of my disability. A disability does not make you disabled. I kept promising to get this done. It was an April goal. I was so glad when I had computer problems so I didn't have to do it. Finally in June, I got my picture posted with me on my walker. Once again, I only received positive comments. Once again I felt a little lighter.
The third big thing...body measurements. I had not taken them for years and didn't want to take them now. I happened to join the last Spark's Boot Camp. One of the things they asked you to do was take your beginning measurements. I bit the bullet and posted them on my page for the world to see. Again, I didn't die. Most of the comments were from people who had mustered up the courage to post their own measurements. Hmmmm! Very surprising and humbling. Again, I didn't die from embarrassment and only wish that I had taken them in the very beginning. Strangely enough I again felt lighter. I'm beginning to think these Spark people might be on to something. I've now completed all 4 Stages so you think things would get easier...not.
Now, the last thing I've done still has me in shock. Never in a million years would I have thought I would do this one. Again, I was beginning another challenge that asked that you take a "before" picture. They even gave you points for doing it. My competitive side was a little bit intrigued, but it was some brave ladies who did it before me that gave me the courage to bite the proverbial bullet. I donned my spandex workout outfit that I have had since 1996 and got ready for my photo-op. Front, back and side views. What in the world was I thinking. I posted them and much to my relief. I was happy I did it. Now it's all out there. I again prepared for the comments. They were all good, encouraging and supportive. Because I did it others followed suit. I was so much lighter.
When I comment to people in the Community, especially new comers, I encourage them to become as transparent to their team mates as they possible can. Carrying around all those little secrets like weight, measurements, pictures, whatever it may be will hold you back from achieving your goals. That "stuff" you're carrying around is very heavy.
I won't lie to you by telling you that each layer you peel off may be painfully excruciating at that moment in time because it is. But I will follow it up with telling, no promising you, that you will feel so much lighter after each layer comes off. No one will laugh. Some may cry tears of joy for your bravery. Many will encourage and support you. But most of all I can't tell you how happy you will make yourself feel.
The awesome thing is that you have not only helped yourself, but you may never know how many people you have helped take a much needed step in their journey to get healthy. So, come on. Are you ready to begin the peel?
What are you willing to let others see?
Beginning weight: 202
Current weight: 173.2