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Let's start at the very beginning..

Thursday, January 27, 2011

...a very good place to start...

And it began with me pulling a bag of 'vintage' clothing I'd worn as a student, when I was dating my DH and as a young Mom. I'd kept the clothes because they had positive memories but I felt ready to pass some on to my DD, who is remodelling retro clothes.

She shook the creases out and, to her credit, she didn't say 'Mom, you were so slim!' The clothes looked tiny. In reality they weren't that tiny - I am now much bigger, so I said, 'I used to have quite a good figure.' That hurt but I thought - 'Cut myself some slack. I've had kids. I'm 40 years older now. I have a career. I don't have time for all that fuss. I'm a very busy woman!'

However the truth is that I'm not just fatter, I'm unfit. I've lost my 'social confidence' and going out with my lovely DH - particularly in mixed company - has become a bit of an ordeal. I can't spend the rest of my life being the one sitting it out or volunteering to hold the bags.

To continue.. the day after my DD's visit found me staring at my open wardrobe, muttering, 'Come on. You could look good again. Could you? No, Face it. Whatever you put on, you'll look like a pudding tied with string.'

Meltdown.

Then I thought this is stupid, 'You can either have a pity party for the next 10 years or you can do something!' So I went over to the computer, armed with two bags of mini-cheddar biscuits and keyed in 'Free on-line exercises'.

Two days later, 'The Spark' plopped on my mat and the whole scheme, site, support network et al. has proved so clear, logical and attainable that there are measurable changes three weeks in, not only in weight and stamina, but in how I feel about myself.

This is truly the beginning. Thank you to the kind friends and Team Leaders, who are guiding this newbie along her first steps. I'm looking forward to sharing this experience with others.

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  • IMAQUALITARIAN
    This is an awesome blog DINAMIC! I understand those feeling you have about going out with DH. Just remember, your weight is not who you are. You are an accomplished woman who is much more than that number. That's why you have to get yourself healthy again! I recently went out with my DH and his co-workers. I always feel inferior ONLY because of my weight. Not this time! I felt confident because I am an accomplished, compassionate, giving person who deserves to have a good time! It must have shown through because we were surrounded by people and everyone was having a great time laughing and just enjoying each other. In past years it's been awkward and low-key. I guess what I'm trying to say is you have other reasons to be proud and confident. Focus on those in social situations, as you are becoming healthier and smaller!! (Love the mini-cheddar biscuits part too! emoticon ) emoticon
    3756 days ago
  • PURPLESPEDCOW
    You are in the right place. Just take it step by step and you will end up where you want.
    3757 days ago
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