Tuesday, April 26, 2011
We focus on it.
We do a little bit at a time working toward changing habits.
We feel like it's a struggle.
We think "this hurdle is just too high".
We get reenergized.
Try again. Focus.
Then something happens.
Months or years go by.
Oh my goodness.
I have changed.
It's a rollercoaster.
And worth the ride.
Go for it.
I have to avoid the things that really tempt me. Out of sight, out of mind... or at least out of reach. And lately the decision isn't a forced one. If I'm sitting at a table with a tempting food, I'm less tempted than I used to be, but frankly the foods that have been true weakness points for me just aren't as much of a problem anymore. I still love them. And I never realllllly "craved" them, but if they were in front of me I used to have trouble saying 'no' to them especially if I was alone with them. If I START, they can still be a bit of a problem but not like they used to be.
If I have any particular weakness, it's probably that at heart I'm a breadaholic. ...So. After portioning with care...and then feeling gyped because I can see what I should not have, I no longer worry about having only a little of the lot. Nope. It is amazing to me, but somehow I've crossed some invisible line and now I rarely am tempted to revert to the mindlessness that led to overeating favorites.
I have changed over the past few years.
My breadaholicism is a pretty significant example.
I avoid buying bread for the most part. When I eat it, I eat it slowly with a focus that is probably sign of mental imbalance. In other words I thoroughly enjoy it, and don't just eat it while my mind is elsewhere. Lately I realized that (as a result of my not buying it often???) when I've gotten the bread I have a few slices, forget to 'freeze for another time'....and... are you ready?... end up throwing away this food I no longer am subjected to by a mere whiff because it gets old before I can reach for more.
I forget it. Even beloved fresh-baked rosemary-olive oil bread. I bought some when I had guests for lunch last month, had 1/2 slice with the meal.... and even though over half a loaf was left over...I forgot all about it until it was time to toss.