And it Continues...
Friday, May 06, 2011
OK.... So... After the seizure of this weekend from my 15 year old son and the new dynamic from my 18 year old daughter, my husband and I both are just wiped out. We are so very tired of going through stress.... Stress! Stress! Stress!
And so... The GREAT thing is that we are getting along no matter what. We're communicating and giving each other space when we need the space. In fact, last week, after a particularly difficult conversation with our newly unmarried, senior in high school and pregnant 18 year old, my husband said I could not make any more snide comments. (They would just leak out periodically...) And so... I took that opportunity to let him know I just could not stay and NOT make snide comments. I was just so shocked and frustrated about the situation........
My dear husband booked a hotel room for me!! And truthfully, I felt loved!! I felt like he wasn't judgmental at all of how I should feel and was just wanting me to "be nice" to my daughter. I think he helped me to recover and to get back on my feet. I truly do.
We are both unable to turn off our thoughts regarding the information about the pregnancy. I have been through seizures with my son, NICU with my daughter, life flight with my other daughter and my husband having a heart attack and emergency triple bypass. On this one, I am simply unable to turn off my concerns.
I am praying and praying and praying. I am focused on taking care of myself and taking care of the family as much as I can. I just wish I could turn off the "what's going to happen" thoughts! --We have been through so much!
We go to counseling next Tuesday and so.... we're trying to hang in and work on what we can work on in the mean time....
Thanks for listening!