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Conquering Fear

Wednesday, June 01, 2011

Fear, I hate being afraid of things. There are some days I just take a deep breath and say, COME ON JUNE, YOU CAN DO IT. Then there are other days I have to PLEAD with myself to do things. I am the type of person that usually will do it even if I'm afraid (that is excluding high risk sports like sky diving, bungee jumping or anything like that), I'm talking about every day things, even driving on the highway on some days.

I try to hold on to how I feel after I've accomplished things. This morning I went to work out at Curves (since I took this whole week off from work) and they had their Zumba circuit, at first I was just going to go home and come back because I thought the Zumba workout would be too much for me and I didn't want to look stupid, but then I said, WHAT THE HELL? Just do it. I am so glad I did, it was a little hard at times, but no one laughed at me and it was fun.

I'm supposed to sing tomorrow night and kept thinking of excuses to get out of it. I sing all the time but for some reason, have been having a lot of apprehension about singing on stage at Tula's. It's a very small, cute venue and I've done it before. Even when my mouth went completely dry, I still managed to do it last time (this year I bought some spray that is supposed to help with dry mouth). Anyway, I got through it and it went great. This year I'm even better than I was because I've been working on jazz a lot and still am not hanging on to the Opera sound anymore. So it's going to be pretty decent.

Just taking chances is ALL a part of life. How many things have I passed up because I was too scared to do it? I'm not going to be on my death bed and say, Oh, I wish I would have done this or that (still NO SKY DIVING, I WON'T be saying that). Life is way too short not to explore things and have fun. I guess that's why I love ghost hunting, belly dance lessons, drumming lessons, guitar lessons, singing in Operas, Jazz lessons, drama classes, etc, etc, etc. I just want to do more and feel like I'm experiencing everything life has to offer. So, I know I'm still over 300 pounds. Does that mean I'm going to let life pass me by until I'm around 200 pounds? I don't think so.

Anyway, for today I am going to do something that scares me. Even if it's trying a new vegetable or fruit. Just to try something different, who know? I may love it and want to try it again and again. I plan to go back to Curves with Zumba on Friday morning. Wooooo-HOOOOOO!!!
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  • JJPJ4242
    You amaze me! I love reading your blogs! UP lifting and fun, you are such a bright spirit! I have been away so long I forgot you were into the ghost hunting thing. My daughter is a BIG fan of ghost hunting. We went on our first hunt in February and she is doing one locally in a few weeks. But the biggy is coming up next week when we are going to California for a very special hunt! Anyway I would, and she would love to hear about any hunts you have been on. E-mail me if you would like to share! And keep up the good work! PJ
    3614 days ago
    Way to Go on facing your fears! I applaud you!

    You are not alone in having to pep talk yourself into doing things and face your fears! I have to push myself out of bed every day and out the door into the world but I am usually glad I did. I don't want to watch the world go by, I want to live and be a part of it :) Thanks for sharing your story!

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    3675 days ago
    This is such a positive, encouraging post! I love it!
    3675 days ago
    I like this post! It is just what I needed to hear right now. Now, onward to face some of my fears!

    3675 days ago
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