I was in such a wonderful mood yesterday morning! April was off to a great start; cardio, ST, tracking my food, eating all my freggies, drinking lots and lots of water. Because of all of those things I was feeling great! I was so positive that my Spark 'status' read: RICEANDBEANS thinks that April is off to a great start Spark-wise. And with that I think I jinxed myself, proceeding to fall off the wagon and land face first in a mess of bad food choices.
I was starving all day long yesterday. It didn't help matters that I only packed a salad for lunch. No matter how large the salad, or what I put in it, it never keeps me satisfied. I brought the salad because I knew, for breakfast, I was going to give into my pregnancy craving of a tomato, fresh mozzarella and basil sandwich from the Italian bakery down the street from my office. While the sandwich is not necessarily bad for me, it is, however, very caloric (but hey, I went into the bakery and only got a sandwich and none of the beautiful, sweet delicacies that were staring at me from their pretty glass case).
I had snacks on had, and they were healthy snacks, but the numbers still add up. By the time I was on my way home, I was very close to my maximum SP calorie allowance for the day, with only the added baby calories I give myself (and extra 300/day for the baby) remaining. I had a very healthy dinner experiment stewing in the crock pot, but knew that I would still probably end up going over my limit, based on how hungry I was feeling. I decided to just eat until I was no longer hungry and not stress about the numbers.
Well, the healthy crock pot experiment was an epic fail. I was so mad, and I was upset about the waste of food because I had made a rather large amount, planning freeze some of it for meals at a later time. Discouraged, I picked up the phone and called for delivery, greasy delivery.
To top that off, I had to bake for my son's preschool fundraiser. I totally gave in, licked the spoon (I know exactly where my eggs come from and don't worry all that much about salmonella, even being pregnant), cleaned out the batter bowl, and even ate the pieces that I butchered while slicing the pumpkin bread. I was already going over my calories for the day, why not go way over, right. Ugh! I felt disgusting and miserable all night long.
I keep telling myself that today is a new day, a fresh start, but I am still disappointed in myself. I started the day with a 3.25 mile walk before the sun came up to put myself in the proper frame of mind. Now let's just see if I can stay here.