Yesterday I read Cock-Robin's blog Dreams and Nightmares. I told him I would write a blog inspired by that and share my long-time dream. I don't want to because I see now what a pathetic, selfish, sad thing it really was.
Okay then, I said often and for years that my dream was to own a library where I could read all the time and have food delivered to me every day so I could eat all I wanted, no matter how fat I got, because I would never go out and no one would come in.
Is that not the sickest, most selfish thing you ever heard?! But as I look around, I realize I could almost describe my life like that right now. Between Amazon and the public library, I have every-thing I want to read. And until sometime in May, I went to Walmart and various restaurants and fast food places many of which are within a 2 block radius of my house, any time I wanted. I live alone in a senior apartment building. So I could just sit and veg all the time. And I did.
I was living the dream. (NIGHTMARE!)
I hit my highest weight ever, and my health was starting to head south. I was diagnosed with diabetes, my knees were beginning to give out on me, and except for my family, I had gotten pretty reclusive. Oh, yes. I had the dream.
But in May things started to change. For months I had been completely unable to get a hold on my eating. I was just stuffing it in with both hands and no end in sight, except an unhealthy one. But now I began to eat healthier and slowly lost 5 lbs. And though my knees were hurting, I began to walk around my building.
And at the end of May, my daughter, IMSOOZEEQ introduced me to SparkPeople. I signed up, but then ignored it for a week. But something drew me back. And since that time I have cleaned up my eating, begun to exercise more, joined a gym, and lost almost another 40 lbs.
But even more than that, I am spending more time with friends, not just here in the building, but going out to lunch, and shopping. I am going to church regularly and am reaching out in ministry to others. I may soon resume teaching a Bible Study. I'm visiting Spark every day and getting involved with Sparkfriends.
Thank you SparkPeople and all my Teams. You may have saved my life, you've certainly made it more fulfilling.
So what is my point? Be careful what you dream and what you say. You may get it.
God bless you all! Keep Sparking.
Here's the song that Cock-Robin put on his blog. I love it and hope you enjoy it.