December 25th 1976 1st real Christmas
All my life I had 'stuff'.
I was raised down the road from GARTH BROOKS, in Yukon, OK. (His now deceased mother, Colleen was a believer in my talents when I was in JR high and High school. The last time I spoke with her was after I was born again, in ’78!)
People SEEMED TO THINK ‘STUFF’ WOULD MAKE ME HAPPY AND I WOULD BE GIVEN MORE STUFF.
Yet when I would try to find a church, It would take me hours. Mom refused to take me and even warned me not to go. (She died at age 38 a couple of years later and I prayed the sinners prayer with her before she passed away.)
Jesus name and Gods name was a curse word in our family, too.
I turned to GOD at 17 crying for reality. After the birth of a deformed child, I searched even harder.
Eventually ended up divorced with 2 sons and lots of ‘stuff’.
As a model, I was in a selfish dog eat dog world. In Dance Competition it was even worse, with a sprinkle of glamor and party added. As an actress it was lonely. PARTY PARTY PARTY!! FUN GLAMOR POPULARITY!!
Empty I cried out to GOD for reality. NOV 29 1976 He called me to come out from amongst them.
Wherefore come out from among them, and be ye separate, saith the Lord, and touch not the unclean thing; and I will receive you, I turned my back on an acting contract with MGM in LA. That left me jobless for the 1st time ever~
I obeyed what I read: fired my housekeeper, live in baby sitter, and threw away all that was evil or worldly, (which was everything)
Or despisest thou the riches of his goodness and forbearance and longsuffering; not knowing that the goodness of God leadeth thee to repentance?
Prayed to GOD for REPENTANCE and asked Him to show me the way the entire time. I followed His instructions verbatim I KNEW HIS WORD HAD COME TO LIFE FOR ME! Then after paying my bills, calling the landlord, I moved, leaving nothing behind with no place to go, all in the same day.
Just in time- as it was GOD’S TIMING FOR ME!
2 Timothy 2:25
In meekness instructing those that oppose themselves; if God peradventure will give them repentance to the acknowledging of the truth;
10 And there was a certain disciple at Damascus, named Ananias; and to him said the Lord in a vision, Ananias. And he said, Behold, I am here, Lord.
11 And the Lord said unto him, Arise, and go into the street which is called Straight, and enquire in the house of Judas for one called Saul, of Tarsus: for, behold, he prayeth,
12 And hath seen in a vision a man named Ananias coming in, and putting his hand on him, that he might receive his sight.
Like Aninias, God led me to a woman’s house who had an apartment building. It was so beautiful! An older home converted into 5 apartments. This woman handed me an application.
I replied with my story of what I knew Jesus asked me to do, as GOD demanded, how I had quit my job as an actress/model and dancer in competition’s.
I had no job, little money in the bank and nothing! Only God’s word and I took it literal! Lol JESUS PLUS NOTHING!
This woman wept, asked Jesus into her heart and offered me the house with all of the furniture TO KEEP AS MY OWN as a gift! I told her I would have to ask GOD. When I prayed I realized she was involved in a ‘cult’ religion. I spoke with my spiritual mother and father WAS TOLD THIS WAS GOD move in -use the furniture, don’t keep it,- but first get it in writing that she wanted no rent and would pay the utilities, LIVE THERE UNTIL THE Lord healed me through His word.
Our 1st Christmas was in that little apartment, and the electricity wasn’t on, yet, Christmas eve. I had a nativity scene that I had found and 1 candle!
We huddled in front of the nativity scene with the candle!
tHIS remains my favorite Christmas of all to this day! Mt sons and I sang many Christian Christmas Carol’s that night! The next day, people poured in with presents for my children, too.
No one knew me. I would go out to walk with my son, and a neighbor offered me food from her garden! Another time, someone gave us meat from a cow they had slaughtered! We ate for months with nearly no money spent, as God healed my wounds, It was the best Christmas I ever had! Because Jesus was so real to me. Others paid me to speak. GOD IS real and wants us to KNOW 'He still talks to us today if we will only listen and obey'!
My sheepe heare my voyce, and I know them, and they follow me.