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feelings I can't afford

Tuesday, November 18, 2014


have been FEELING sorry for myself, and like all of us, it's a luxury I can't afford.
Regret over the car accident is another thing I can't afford.

Yesterday, one of my 'real life friends', told me I would be dealing with back trouble the rest of my life!! Funny, but I had NEVER even thought that or felt like it was an option. I pray it inst an option.

Yes, I came to visit in New Orleans, LA, to scope out the ministry and be close to my children!! I had no intentions of actually moving here for a year or so, unless doors opened!
Now, I'm here and can't leave until the law suit settles, which could be a year or longer.
This quote sums up how I feel at the moment:

“Sometimes I can hear my bones straining under the weight of all the lives I'm not living.”
― Jonathan Safran Foer, Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close

This is another thought that I have thought of since I 1st read it last week:

“Why didn't I learn to treat everything like it was the last time. My greatest regret was how much I believed in the future.”
― Jonathan Safran Foer, Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close


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  • GLORY-
    You don't have to recieve a negative report from anyone because GOD can do the impossible!
    2359 days ago
    I'm grateful for being able to walk home, albeit in a long series of small steps leading in the same direction. To find you and others journeying, singing Psalms of Ascent, is an answer to prayer Both needful and joyous.

    We are doing this!

    "Here we are together confessing our need for you now. We open ourselves to you; we dont love too good so teach us how! Show us how to bring praise, and from this creation please raise a glad song. Beat our swords into plows. Be with us in every 'now'; be our all." (’82)
    2381 days ago
    2396 days ago
    I remember TD Jakes teaching his congregation," It is not about the destination, it is about the journey." These words really spoke to my heart.
    One truth that has always helped me when man wants to say things over me, is "Whose report am I going to believe?" I am going to believe the report of the Lord.
    I am joining faith with you and saying, "Back you will line up to the word of the Lord. Pain your grip on my sister is going to come to an end. The same power that raised Jesus from the dead lives in my sister and I am going to join my voice with my sister and declare total restoration in all area.
    I thank you that you are the strength of Della's life and she will proclaim good things over her. She will say, I shall go forth, I shall recover what has been stolen. I shall take back what the enemy has stolen.
    I am believing God with you miss Della. one day at a time.
    2401 days ago
  • no profile photo CD15121954
    One day at a time dear friend and in each day know you have spark friends that are lifting your name up unto the One Above who Cares and is not limited in power.
    2402 days ago
  • 123ELAINE456
    You Can do it Della. I'm safe. In Motel 6 for now. Love You. And sending Hugs and Prayers Your Way.
    2403 days ago
    hugs hope everything works out for you
    2403 days ago
  • no profile photo CD14402600
    Living in the moment is something I'm trying to do also. Not easy, but I know I can do it with Gods help.
    Another friend on spark recently told me that the most given command from God is not love your neighbor but Do Not Fear. Keeping that in mind lately has helped me push the fears aside and focus on the moment. We aren't promised tomorrow. Just the right now. Hope you will be feeling better soon. I do keep you in my prayers. Eileen
    2403 days ago
    We never know where we will be at any given time in our lives, but we can be sure that where ever we are, it is where God has put us!! Also, none of us is guaranteed ANY time in the future. Our furture may not even exist. We are here only as long as we are supposed to be here, and not a second longer. emoticon
    2404 days ago
    The person who told you that you'd have back trouble for the rest of your life may have meant well, but it's just not true. Get rid of that thought- it's not useful. Take care.
    2404 days ago
    good quotes! Hope you are feeling better though~
    2404 days ago
  • MARYBETH4884
    Remember, God is in every one of those moments! He is in charge of the big picture too! Rest in that assurance! Prayer are being sent!
    2404 days ago
    HUGS and prayers, my dear!
    2404 days ago
  • GLORY-
    Praying for you! There are times we need to take one day at a time and focus on the good of that day.
    2404 days ago
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  • MBPP50
    Great blog. Sometimes I can only live one minute at a time because that's as much energy as I have but one minute turns into one hour into one day and on and on and on. I actually have a cross stitch that I did, which took me about a year, that says "Live Life in the Moment." I was going to give it as a gift but instead had it beautifully framed and hung it right next to my bedroom door so I see it every morning when I get up.
    2404 days ago

    Comment edited on: 11/18/2014 2:39:49 PM
    You have the right attitude and it's awesome you're taking the steps to move forward! You can do this!! emoticon
    2404 days ago
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