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...Second verse, same as the first!

Thursday, September 29, 2016

Holy cow. WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME???? I did an elimination diet over the summer, lost 12lbs, then promptly resorted back to bad habits and guess what, I'm back up to 186.8. So that 12lbs I lost was all for nothing. Stupid. Why is it so hard to stay the course?

Sigh.

Today is Day 2 of keto. I need to just get outside of my head and do what I need to do, because the difference 12 lbs makes is significant. +12 I feel bloated, lethargic, decreased energy, mentally just like GARBAGE. Unworthy. Unlovable. Unattractive. Unhealthy. Our family went to a water park over the weekend, and one ride weighs you at the top: Two people using the smaller raft can't be over 400lbs together. Hubby is tall and all muscle, weighing in at 220. Yeah...I knew we would be close but hoped I hadn't gained back all I'd lost, so thought we'd sneak in just under the wire. No such luck. And that was my wakeup call that this needs to end (yet again.)

I logged for sooooo many years on Spark, and when I hit my goal weight, I was ecstatic to finally have freedom from tracking EVERY LITTLE CALORIE. I hate it, I really do. But for me, it works, so I need to just wrap my head around having to do it, and DO IT. I'm committing to logging and doing keto for 30 days. There will be a reward at the end. Not sure what yet, but maybe a massage.

Anywho. Here we go. Again.

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  • _RAMONA
    I find staying the course a lot easier when I stay connected here. If you're interested, I just wrote a blog detailing TON of great keto resources that I've found really helpful (I eliminated almost 100 lbs. in the last 10 months). I followed the Paleo team blog feed here... the team has a number of keto-paleo people. Come and join the conversation!

    You can do this!
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    1721 days ago
  • MORTICIAADDAMS
    Losing weight is so hard for me. I can't afford to gain weight again.
    1722 days ago
  • POSITIVEHOPE
    I wrote a blog yesterday about why it's so hard to stay the course on this journey. I found inspiration for the blog from some SP articles.

    Stop by my page and read my blog Excuses for more.
    1722 days ago
  • MADILYNEVE
    Sometimes it take a wakeup call to get you moving , good luck
    1722 days ago
  • HWEST5131
    I feel everything you say. Constantly going up and down. Back and forth. Perhaps this will be the time it sticks for both of us.
    1722 days ago
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