Two weeks in
Thursday, October 13, 2016
I hate this journey. I hate thinking about my weight 24/7. I hate feeling like i'm forever attempting to reach (re-reach) and maintain. I hate having to think about every little thing I eat. I hate the extensive planning it takes to eat healthy. I hate that my grocery bill has climbed up (holy mackerel, meat prices have SOARED here). Sigh.
Diet-wise, keto seems to be working out OK. I'm just literally not hungry these past 2 weeks, even going through the fun cycle of female hormones. I don't find I'm longing for anything. Made chocolate chip cookies last night for a team sleepover my daughter is having this weekend, and didn't even feel like eating one. Eating dairy, and I think specifically higher fat on keto, means I don't feel deprived like I did on the last elimination diet I did (where I did feel that cutting out dairy made me FEEL better; no stomach aches, clear skin, and I dropped 10lbs in one month) so sticking to it should be easier. The site that I use for keto support recommends 20g of carbs or less, but I've set my goal at 30-40g (with 50g or less being traditionally considered low-carb) and have been within range every day. Weight-wise, i've only lost 3.4lbs in 2 weeks. The "strict" keto-ers report losses of 10-12lbs the first two weeks, but I'm certain many of them weren't used to drinking water all the time like I do, and probably were eating a LOT of carbs daily, whereas I really wasn't.
Anywho. I guess it's a start. Just feeling rather blah today about the whole long journey. I guess it's good that I'm still here, and caring, and trying all these years after joining Spark in 2008, but man I'd just like to be one of those people who has a great metabolism (my husband, my best friend, my oldest daughter) and can eat whatever whenever and not gain. I could kick myself for gaining back 40lbs since 2012. There's only so much comfort in "well, hey, at least I'm not back to the starting weight."