Where are you, and why do you want to change?
Ah, Episode 1. Often when I'm reviewing the IOWL podcasts, I skip this one, because, well, it's obvious why I want to change, right?
But sometimes skipping means actively avoiding... Think I've been doing some of that lately.
I listened to it twice today, and wrote down some of what jumped out at me.
What are my unwanted behaviors?
I really don't like eating when I'm not hungry, or eating past full. These days I'm not so likely to eat to the painful part, but by not waiting until I'm actively hungry, I'm taking in too much.
I also don't like when I end up skipping exercise (actually, I guess exercise is a wanted behavior I'm not adding as consistently as I want). I've been much better lately, but I'm not where I want to be.
I don't like the way I feel. There's too much of me--I'm getting in my own way. Literally. Lately I've had what I think may be the beginning of arthritis in my hip--I know it's better when I do yoga/stretches, and it would probably be better if I cut inflammatory foods like wheat.
I want to take up less room on the bus. :-)
I want to have more fun shopping. Even a minor weight loss will put me back to where I don't have to worry so much about my weird proportions.
The visualization of where I'll be in 5 years, 10 years, 20 years was a bit scary--it's the first time in a very long time when I feel like it will really be hard to get things turned around. On the other hand, the thought of making a course correction, and how hard it is to see immediately, but what a HUGE difference it makes in the long run was encouraging.
Towards the end of the podcast, Renee says something about taking ownership, responsibility. I had a totally negative reaction. I feel like I'm dealing with too much responsibility lately, and I just want to not have to think about my food. Sigh.
Not realistic, really--though there are things I can do to remove the thinking. Like preparing some food ahead of time, so I don't have to think when I'm actually hungry.
...and with that, I think I'll go make my lunch for tomorrow.