Negative Self-Talk Almost Killed Me!
Monday, June 12, 2017
It's been quite some time since I've posted anything. And my journey to better health had had several setbacks
From early 2011 I have been plagued with chronic migraine. I was having as many as 25 a month. The longest one I ever had was 19 days. And finding the magic combinations of treatments, therapies and medication has been a long and frustrating process. But I think we have finally got them under control.
During that time I had gained some weight back due to inactivity and poor nutrition. And I began to have some issues, I quickly dismissed with horribly negative self-talk. "If you took better care of yourself, Alesia, you wouldn't have these problems." "This is what you get for being fat" And I'm sure I said much, much worse.
The negative self talk prevented me from paying attention to a very, very serious medical situation that had developed. It wasn't until last year the situation came to a head, and I was forced to seek medical attention. It's a complicated set of medical conditions which, I'm not quite prepared to disclose. But what I will say is that, it was and still can be life threatening. One of my "treatments" was to return to a healthy weight, and be sure to use my CPAP at night. And while those things have helped a small amount, they weren't the "cure" we were hoping for.
While am out of the woods, for the moment, the battle for recovery continues. Now that I'm at a healier weight, I still have a lot of work to do.
A few of the precious lessons I have learned, pay attention to your body; don't assume every struggle is due to bring "fat"; don't play doctor, if something persists, see a medical profressional. A simple pulse/ox reading very nearly saved my life