I can't (won't) beat myself up.
Wednesday, July 31, 2019
I was SO excited last year when I ended the year in onederland. I lost 33 pounds last year. Hard work, and commitment. I flew into 2019 with a mission, to be 150 by the end of the year.....then.....I got lazy. I was great through January and February part of March and then BAM. I have successful lost (and gained) the same 4 pounds for 4 months. I'm sitting here at 181, which truth be told isn't awful. I've been negligent with the elepitical which is my friend, and have come back to some of my old habits which are not good. But, I'm honestly happy. I've lost 20 pounds SO FAR this year. That's great. Could I be doing better, yup. But previously if I had stalled, I would have gone back to my old ways, and I haven't. And honestly, I am hoping I don't. I like shopping in the regular stores, and not plus sizes.
I'm not going to beat myself up. Am I going to eat ice cream, yup. And drink wine, yup. Both in the same day? Nope. My "long" walks are now 8 miles once or twice a week. My short walks, 4 miles, once or twice a week. I know this is helping me to not move back to my old ways. I hav decided come September I am going to join a gym. Which is hard ( it's 45 minutes from my home), but if I commit to 4 days a week, I think its doable.
My "goal" for my 59th birth anniversary is to be down to168, which would make 31 pounds for this year, which would be wonderful. And I think that's would be a great place to end this year (as I am very realistic to the holidays).
I have made some non-scale victories (NSV) I'm down another inch ( or so) in my waist...(I officially measure every 3 months, but I do check every now and again, next official is September) which is awesome. I feel good, I know I am doing mostly great things, and need to keep my focus and commitment. I feel like Thomas the engine, I think I can, I think I can, I know I can.
If you happen to stop by, thank you. The SP community is by far my biggest inspiration... you guys are great, thank you, thank you....
Happy sparking, now back to housework!