ENOUGH IS ENOUGH
Monday, November 04, 2019
I've always had a tendency to daydream. My first memory of school is my kindergarten teacher, Mrs. Bernstein, jerking on my pigtail, telling me to stop daydreaming.
Daydreaming is great for creativity, but not so much if it is rumination, analyzing past events over and over or daydreaming to escape from stress.
I have learned through the years to focus on the tasks at hand, but I still get caught up in time-waster daydreams. At my age I can't afford the luxury of anything that keeps me away from my goals.
As I've aged, my goals have changed, but it seems I still have time management issues. I want to get off the hamster wheel of useless activities. Lately I am dissastisfied with excessive entertainment taking away from my precious time such as movies, TV programs, sports, games, social activities, etc. I classify these as my escape daydreams. I'm still holding on to them, but now they are more an irritant than pleasurable as I realize that I could be doing something more worthwhile. I still want happiiness, but it is in a more subtle form.
M. Scott Peck wrote in The Different Drum "True adults are those of us who have learned to continually develop and exercise their capacity for transformation."
Creative daydreams are still okay, but I feel a turning point where there is no more room for self sabotage or escapes - enough is enough.