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Digging Deep Again!

Monday, November 11, 2019

Oh how I hate having to start again.... and again .... and again!
I feel like a broken record, feel terribly embarrassed, and yes..... even like a failure at times.

I fall off my wagon so very often, when I am doing amazing, off I go into the bushes.....
rolling down the hill and landing in the mud hole at the bottom.

THATS OK! Time for a mud bath and a nice shower and back up the hill, one small step at a time so that maybe I will not trip and fall again.

So here's the truth and my path so far:

2010 (345)

2016 (291)

2019 (319)

Time to have a nice long talk with the Good Lord and to leave this unhappy and unhealthy life behind! I know I have it in me to do this, I have done it before. Lord, take me by the hand!
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    543 days ago
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    I told you this the first time I ever visited your page - you have the kindest face! I just want to break out the teapot and have a chat!

    I agree with LilyGrace - your husband does look like a young Walter Matthau!

    543 days ago
    From experience I have fallen so many times myself but you will conquer!
    543 days ago
    Honestly, I think you are doing remarkably well. This journey challenges even when times are going smoothly. You have been able to not quit which is far more than I did many times.
    543 days ago
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    Did you know that your husband looks like a younger Walter Matthau?! lol! Has he heard that before? This isn't a starting over, this is just a continuing. You are going to get there, even if you have to fall down and get up, stop, start, many times. You are experienced and you know what it takes to get up and keep on going. You are equipped! You are learning things that someone else will need to know how to navigate through on their journey. You will be able to teach them how! You are being taught! The Lord believes in you and the plans He has for your life. You are exactly where you are supposed to be so that He can use you for His purposes! You have all that you need to march on Warrior! Gear up and battle on!
    543 days ago
    I'm praying for you along with myself. Yes, we can do this one day at a time. God's blessings!
    543 days ago
    Thanks, Debbie, for your inspiration as you continue to fight this battle with us. Perhaps focus on how many good habits you have already attained, and know that God will always be there to help us when we can't do it alone.
    543 days ago
    Debbie, they say " practice makes perfect" I understand exactly what you are saying.. I have done it so many times, however the perfect part has not arrived yet, however I know as long as we get back up, then that is improvement, it's when we give up that we know the enemy is winning !

    God knows us , and He knows our hearts, and I am so thankful He is willing to always help me back up and give me strength to keep on going !!!

    Praying for you , you are going to make it one day at a time ! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

    Hugs and Prayers,
    543 days ago
  • MAIN4ME15
    Good for you for getting back up again each time and for knowing He is where your strength comes from!
    543 days ago
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