A better Day
Wednesday, April 01, 2020
A better day yesterday and today.
Yesterday I managed to stick to my three meals and nothing in between. Today I added exercise. I did aquafit for an hour and then gardened for an hour. It's not perfect. I just ate a box of crackers. But something is being nudged back towards "normal" or whatever that is these days. The front yard has frozen soil still so I could not transplant things from the back there even though the soil in the side yard was loose and I could split plants. I guess that describes how I feel.
Grateful - I played recorder for a bit and then watched a video on dog training. I noticed that I was able to "forget" for a little while what is going on in the world. I've had a chance to talk to hubby about why I need to know what is going on in the world. I don't want people to think they are forgotten. I don't want to take for granted all those who are making my life possible. I want them to know that if I could I would help because I am very very aware of how crazy and impossible and exhausting some people's lives are right now. I am brainstorming and problem solving in my head. There is a part of me that believes from all the meditation that I used to do, that there is a common energy. A layer of thoughts where we can share. Where we can shine a light into others' darkness. So if I think about what might be done to help all those people in India, or all the nurses in New York, or all the homeless downtown Ottawa during this crisis, perhaps it will piggy back on the person who will be able to follow through with an idea. I can share a belief that there is hope. I know that I have to look after myself. I know that I can help people in my family and community. So it is also deciding on a plan. Right now that means paying attention on our community Facebook page for things I might be able to do or contribute to. Talking to my kids on the phone and listening to their concerns. But also planting seeds (we are seeing vegetable sprouts already in my window sill pots), playing harp on the deck for the neighbours to hear, sending a card to my mother in law who is in a home. I am grateful for feeling peace within all these layers of what I can and cannot do. Grateful for the Prime Minister's message today where he was very authentic. He was vulnerable and authentic admitting our government's dependance on all of us to predict what is ahead. Whether that is not spreading the virus or volunteering time and resources to help us fill gaps.
Anyways. I am accepting that this reality is with us for weeks or months and I can choose to thrive within it rather than hold my breath and wait for it to be over. It may be a different world when we emerge. Things may never be the same. So part of my challenge is to be ready to adapt as things change. And be part of a new solution. And be ready to reach out and hold hands with those who will be there to make it happen on that better day.