Time to make the choice
Saturday, January 16, 2021
A couple of years ago I was very successful in getting to my goal weight of 68kg. Slowly, I have regained most of the weight that I had lost. I have been waiting for the lightning bolt of unshakable motivation and resolve to strike again, so I can move the weight again, but so far it hasn't happened.
This morning I was walking and I started thinking about that year that I lost the weight. What had been different then? And I had a realisation that that year had been one of the hardest of my life. There were a lot of things totally out of my control and I didn't really know how to keep it together. For me, logging food and counting calories was the one thing I could control and I think I clung onto it for dear life- the results were great, I felt fantastic in my body, even as everything was crumbling around me and it helped me get through that year with some positivity. But it was definitely a coping mechanism.
So since then, my life has settled down and I am grateful every day. I feel very lucky. But it's only been today that I realised that the unshakable motivation isn't going to find me when I have things mostly under control. And I don't ever want a year like that again.
So now a decision has to be made.
Motivation is not going to find me, I need to find it. And work hard at it. And decide that I need to make the changes to get the results. I'm not all of a sudden going to stop feeling like chocolate after dinner, or stop loving Blue Castello. Now it has to be choices, every day, consistently. It's been a great realisation because it's taken away the wait for motivation. It can start right now