Happy Daisy Day!!
I love this image because I believe It’s better to try and make mistakes than to play it safe and regret never trying. Take the 1999 film Notting Hill, where Hugh Grant's character falls over, saying 'oopsie daisy'. (You can see that scene by clicking on this link: www.youtube.com/
Now don't get me wrong, that was never my life mantra; however, looking back, even though it wasn't my vocal mantra, it was my mantra. I always have these dreams, always push myself, and often don't settle.
To be honest, I think that may be some of why I drank - I mean back in my day, it wasn't proper for a female (and males) to step out of the box, expect more (or less) than society expected of me, and to not conform (but wow did I try to conform - it just always felt sooo wrong!) So I felt drinking helped me - it did make me feel better and it was something I could control (how ironic is that.. I thought I was in control of the alcohol and not the other way around!)
I think when I was trying to conform I realized there were a few things I could control... food being one of them. I could eat/sneak that extra chocolate, that extra serving, and yeah... very early on I then connected food to comfort. In addition, being poor I often went without food so my younger brother and sister could eat. So food for me also makes me feel safe, to feel I'm not this horrible poor person.
To this day, I still go through those feelings. I am stressed, I eat. I am tired, I eat. I am bored, I eat. I'm uncomfortable, I eat. You get the point. And I still have a hard time getting through these cravings and urges (again how ironic is that.. I thought I was in control of food and not the other way around!)
Take yesterday for example, I ate good all morning and then stressful events happened at work - had 2 residents that had to be sent out to the hospital and found out that one of the employees tested positive, an employee that I work with closely... a lot. So last night, I ordered my food (we get a free meal here from the chef/dining room) and I wrote down I want salad... not half an hour, I changed it and got myself a juicy hamburger and french fries. And yes, I ate the dessert too.
My will power is just so incredibly low. Anyone else dealt with this or dealing with it now? Would love to know what works and what doesn't work for you!
DID YOU KNOW:
Daisies open their flowers during daytime and lower their petals during the night. This is because at night daisies are resting, sleeping, and they wake up again when the sun comes up. And with that note, it is time for me to lower my own petals as well.
Looking forward to tomorrow!