Thursday, February 04, 2021
I felt I needed to blog today. I'm still searching for my "ah-ha moment. I see and hold a hope deep inside that I will wake up one morning and feel that it's all going to change from that moment on. My weight is going up( at least I feel like it. I no longer have a working scale). I just want to really be happy and have a good day.
I've been on SP way...too...long to just coast along watching everyone do "their own thing", and progress forward. I want to be on the winning list, not just sitting on the bench. I think one of the hardest things is that if not for Sparkpeople, ild have no one who I could talk to or who actually understand what I'm talking about. For those of you I'm grateful.
It's not like I dont know what needs to be done. It's when it needs to be done I freeze like a deer at night staring at a cars headlights frozen.
I dont know why i hesitate on moving. I'm always hurting when moving. Always tired. I give in and up easily. And yes, I've talked to Drs about all this and have been put on meds. I'm still floundering around waiting for something to happen to start turning everything around.