Time to push through the depression and grab some motivation and be gut level honest with you
Saturday, March 13, 2021
Hello everyone I'm going to be honest with you I haven't been on Sparks because I have not been doing well for quite some time my health has declined rapidly. And I have actually found that it is not my fault I have gained back 3/4 if not all of my weight that I released last year which really upsets me. One of the main reasons this upsets me is because I am having dizzy spells again and they have come back worse than before and I am having more pain than I've ever had before. Also my back is a lot weaker than it has ever been in my entire life. Which makes me extremely leary of moving around anywhere. Another thing that has been an issue for me is my teeth my gums and my teeth have been extremely sensitive of light when I would brush and this has been an ongoing issue and concerns me greatly and I didn't know why. I went to a dentist earlier this year and he told me it was due to allergies. I had thought once I got rid of one of my allergens that this would go away. But what I did not know when I seen the allergist recently that the test that I had taken and picked out that's 40 of them would show up was an environmental that was in my house would be the one causing me problems. What am I getting at? I had 40 different allergy test done on Tuesday from an allergy specialist at my local hospital the results came back on Friday afternoon with one coming back abnormal in the doctor's office wanted to see me. What was that abnormal result? Mold you heard me mold yes and guess what we have that in our house black mold and I'm not really happy right now because it's been making me sick probably four years and I haven't known and number two the former owners never told us that it was underneath the Roof Inn in the sub Roofing how do I know this our neighbor told me about this tidbit if you will because of the inspector who they fired before the house was sold now you tell me what that tells you. One last thing I am now on step 4 step 5 step 5 in my recovery I finished my fourth step inventory I also did John bevere book bait of Satan and found out I was holding many grudges and I added them to my resentment list and I have realized if I want complete recovery I need to give these up and let go of the anger resentment and so on. But also I need to be willing 2 move forward and exercise even if it means a little at a time.