Group photo
Author:
CD17362792 SparkPoints: (7,270)
Fitness Minutes: (10,514)
Posts: 113
12/17/17 7:42 P

Send Private Message
Reply
I'm having a bad day, more like the realization that I've gained so much weight in the last 3 years that I can't fit into my pants and makes me wanna cry emoticon . I know it's my fault for gaining the weight and all. just today even though ive lost 4 pounds on the scale I started feeling down after having to struggle to get my jeans on emoticon . I guess im just ranting. thanks to anyone who reads this.

MILLER-S's Photo MILLER-S Posts: 30,011
12/4/17 7:44 P

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
Hugs to you, too, JAZZY. emoticon emoticon

JAZZYGF's Photo JAZZYGF Posts: 5,945
12/4/17 7:01 P

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
Getting updated so sorry miller s that someone offended.we are all making baby steps trying to get through holidays hugs emoticon

small goal 160


 Pounds lost: 4.0 
0
3
6
9
12
MILLER-S's Photo MILLER-S Posts: 30,011
11/23/17 11:51 A

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
They sure are. emoticon

HEALTH_NOW's Photo HEALTH_NOW SparkPoints: (45,019)
Fitness Minutes: (23,041)
Posts: 3,271
11/23/17 11:22 A

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
Holidays are rough.

 July Minutes: 0
0
43
86
129
172
CD17815201 Posts: 77
11/9/17 4:58 P

Send Private Message
Reply
Thank you. I appreciate it. I may delete my account on the other site if it keeps happening.

MILLER-S's Photo MILLER-S Posts: 30,011
11/9/17 3:19 P

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
I'm very sorry someone wrote something so utterly mean. There's no excuse for that kind of behavior. Is there a moderator or someone you can report them to? People shouldn't be allowed to hurt others like that. I can't imagine anyone on SparkPeople saying something so awful. I don't think I would want to go to a site where people are so rude, but my daughter tells me there are internet trolls everywhere who just love saying mean and shocking things. I guess they get a sick kick out of it. My best advice is to try to ignore it by realizing the person who said that is just a troll or a total jerk and what they say doesn't count for anything.

Big hugs to you!!!
emoticon emoticon



CD17815201 Posts: 77
11/9/17 2:06 A

Send Private Message
Reply
Thanks, feeling a bit stressed out at the moment to be honest. Logged onto one of my accounts on another sie like this one, and noticed a comment that someone wrote. And, it said "I wish people like you didnt exist". I dont know whether to be upset or not. But i instantly felt horrible about my weight.

SCRAPMANIA's Photo SCRAPMANIA Posts: 50
11/7/17 11:52 A

Send Private Message
Reply
Good for you on the wii dance! What a good alternative when it's raining out. emoticon

"Life may not be the party we hoped for, but while we are here, we might as well dance." ~Unknown


 current weight: 302.0 
302
295.25
288.5
281.75
275
CD17815201 Posts: 77
11/7/17 12:21 A

Send Private Message
Reply
Thank you. It was raining today so I did some wii just dance for 34 minutes. I feel it works out more of a sweat than walking. Im happy I did that so now I just need to focus on not weighing myself so much. I use the nutrition tracker but not that closely.

MILLER-S's Photo MILLER-S Posts: 30,011
11/6/17 8:35 P

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
I'm sorry you're feeling so bad today. It helps me to track my food and drinks in the SparkPeople Nutrition Tracker. It helps me see where my calories are coming from and where I can make changes. There's even a place to track Emotional Eating, which is something I struggle with. If you don't already use the Nutrition Tracker, you may want to give it a try.

It's great you're taking walks - you deserve a big pat on the back for that!!! emoticon

Hope things go well when you see the dietician.

Miller emoticon

CD17815201 Posts: 77
11/6/17 6:37 P

Send Private Message
Reply
Im feeling horrible today; my weight keeps going up even though I go for walks atleast 3 or 4 times a day as recommended by my physio. I think its what I eat but cant see a dietitian until 14th November. I don't know what to do.

MILLER-S's Photo MILLER-S Posts: 30,011
10/28/17 1:00 P

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
That's great, Lori!!! emoticon emoticon

SPLORI's Photo SPLORI Posts: 6,069
10/28/17 9:58 A

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
I really enjoyed going back to master gardeners. The people there are so nice and understanding. I was able to do the work.

TOPS Hugs
Lori
Eastern Standard Time USA

Consult not your fears,
but your hopes and dreams.
Think of not about your frustrations,
but about your unfulfilled potential.
Concern yourself not with what you have tried and failed in,
but what it is still possible for you to do.

Pope John XXIII


Co Leader of team TOPS in Sparkpeople
www.sparkpeople.com/myspark/groups_i
ndividual.asp?gid=8008
www.sparkpeople.com/myspark/g


 Pounds lost: 22.6 
0
8.25
16.5
24.75
33
MILLER-S's Photo MILLER-S Posts: 30,011
10/19/17 3:54 P

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
MARIE, Congratulations on losing some weight! emoticon
Twelve hours is a long time to be away from home. My husband used to get up at 5:30am and get home at 6:30pm. Now with his new job, he's only about 15 minutes away from home. While he is glad to be away from the other job, the new job is not going very well now. He was hired to write computer programs and they've got him working in a non-air conditioned warehouse three days a week lying on his back and taking electronic parts out of some sort of machines. That is not what he was hired to do, but his boss says it will cost the company more to pay others to do it. He is not happy because they've given him other projects, too, and the manual labor takes away from the time he could be using to complete his projects. It's frustrating, but he's trying to just take it one day at a time. *I'm glad you're able to get away at lunch and go somewhere. I hope you soon get used to your new schedule and are less tired at the end of the days.

LORI, it's great that your blood work is all normal and I'm so glad your meds are working. emoticon
I hope you enjoy going back to Master Gardeners.



I'm finding it very hard to get motivated to do things, but I'm trying to break things down into smaller tasks. Once I get going on the smaller tasks, I sometimes gets some more energy to do more.

I hope everyone has a good weekend ahead. emoticon

Miller emoticon

Edited by: MILLER-S at: 10/19/2017 (15:56)
SPLORI's Photo SPLORI Posts: 6,069
10/19/17 3:41 P

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
Hi everyone,

I am feeling better each day, I think the meds are working. I plan on going back to Master Gardeners next week.

Went to primary Dr. Tuesday, all test and blood work is normal. I showed hin the dash diet I want to follow and he said it is OK.

I do hope the news jobs are working out.

TOPS Hugs
Lori
Eastern Standard Time USA

Consult not your fears,
but your hopes and dreams.
Think of not about your frustrations,
but about your unfulfilled potential.
Concern yourself not with what you have tried and failed in,
but what it is still possible for you to do.

Pope John XXIII


Co Leader of team TOPS in Sparkpeople
www.sparkpeople.com/myspark/groups_i
ndividual.asp?gid=8008
www.sparkpeople.com/myspark/g


 Pounds lost: 22.6 
0
8.25
16.5
24.75
33
MARIENOW's Photo MARIENOW SparkPoints: (17,227)
Fitness Minutes: (4,164)
Posts: 1,672
10/18/17 11:44 P

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
Miller, sending good luck to your husband on his new job. He must feel so happy to get away from his previous position. I hope everything goes well and that he loves it.

emoticon emoticon

Moving to Fat Secret (NYCALife) and My Fitness Pal (MarieNYCA).
MARIENOW's Photo MARIENOW SparkPoints: (17,227)
Fitness Minutes: (4,164)
Posts: 1,672
10/18/17 11:40 P

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
Thanks Miller and Lori. I've worked 3 days so far and honestly I'm exhausted. I come home and just jump into the tub to soak my legs. My whole body feels sore, especially my legs. I think that's probably because I normally lay down a lot, so this is a change to be sitting all day. There's tons of traffic too so I'm basically gone a little over 12 hours a day.

I do feel a little relieved in that at least now I know what to expect from the job. I do still feel nervous because they have A LOT of meetings and I get nervous in those situations. I don't like having to speak in groups. I guess I'm just a free spirit and have never liked any type of "corporate" environment. I literally was at the end of my money so I needed this job desperately. I'm grateful to have it, (although I do complain about various things in my head a few times a day!)

We have to take hour-long lunches so in some ways that's good because I drive someplace else for lunch. The good news is I already lost a few pounds. That's probably because I've been too exhausted to eat dinner when I get home.

I agree with you both. My ex-boyfriend used to always say he expects nothing from family, so he's never disappointed. It's kind of sad but maybe that's the best way to look at it. Then we can all focus on our own self-care and doing things that make us feel good.

emoticon emoticon emoticon

Moving to Fat Secret (NYCALife) and My Fitness Pal (MarieNYCA).
MILLER-S's Photo MILLER-S Posts: 30,011
10/15/17 5:02 P

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
Lori, I'm glad you're feeling better. I like what you said about not expecting anything and knowing you cannot control them or their thoughts. I often tell myself not to expect anything from my extended family, especially my eldest sister.
emoticon emoticon

Edited by: MILLER-S at: 10/15/2017 (17:04)
SPLORI's Photo SPLORI Posts: 6,069
10/15/17 9:38 A

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
Miller and Marie, Thank you. I am feeling better, I just told myself not to expect anything from people. I cannot control them or there thoughts.

Marie, I do agree with Miller. It is very hard to find a job, also the first days are very nerve racking. Disability does not give us enough to live on. Let us know how you make out.


TOPS Hugs
Lori
Eastern Standard Time USA

Consult not your fears,
but your hopes and dreams.
Think of not about your frustrations,
but about your unfulfilled potential.
Concern yourself not with what you have tried and failed in,
but what it is still possible for you to do.

Pope John XXIII


Co Leader of team TOPS in Sparkpeople
www.sparkpeople.com/myspark/groups_i
ndividual.asp?gid=8008
www.sparkpeople.com/myspark/g


 Pounds lost: 22.6 
0
8.25
16.5
24.75
33
MILLER-S's Photo MILLER-S Posts: 30,011
10/13/17 9:58 P

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
MARIE, I'm sorry you're having a bad day. While I'm very glad you found a job, especially one in your field with decent pay, I can understand why you don't look forward to being inside all day. I hated being cooped up when I was working and my sister disliked it even more than me. She coped with it by going outside to her truck during lunchtime and sitting there with the windows down and eating and reading. She said no matter how hot or cold it was, she just liked being outside. She was also able to set her hours so she could go in at 7:30, take 30 minutes for lunch, and leave at 4:00. She at least felt like she had more daylight that way.

I agree with you that working a regular business schedule will help you with an overall feeling of well-being. When I worked, I often dreaded going there, but I did feel a satisfying feeling of being productive and a part of the greater world. Now, I'm so isolated and I frequently feel disconnected.

From what I understand, disability payments are much lower than what you make when working. I could be wrong about that, but that's what I've heard people say, so that's something to consider.

My husband just started a new job this week and it's always nerve-wracking until you get your bearings and get familiar with everything. He hated his old job and looked for one for the whole 14 years he was there. He finally had to take a contract-to-hire position with no benefits just to get a different job. He hopes if he works hard, he'll be hired as a regular employee after 3 to 6 months. I surely hope so, as we're having to pay COBRA an exhorbitant amount for medical insurance.

I'm sure you'll do a good job and they'll like your work. Just take it one day at a time. After the first couple of weeks, you'll feel better, I'm sure.

Miller emoticon emoticon

MARIENOW's Photo MARIENOW SparkPoints: (17,227)
Fitness Minutes: (4,164)
Posts: 1,672
10/13/17 8:35 P

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
How is everyone doing?

I'm having a bad day. I should be happy because I finally got a job. It took about 7 months to find something. I felt that people were prejudice against my weight because normally it doesn't take as long for me to find work. I could actually feel people judging me by my weight.

I had a couple offers before this one but they were for extremely low paying part time jobs. For this job the pay is decent, it's full time, and it's in my field. I "should be" happy but part of my issue is that I get depressed when I feel "couped up" in an office. I hate the idea of being stuck inside for 8 or 9 hours a day where I can't leave. It makes me feel claustrophobic.

So I'm not looking forward to Monday but I don't have a choice because I need to work. Sometimes I wish I were on disability but I also know that being forced into a regular business schedule will help me in many areas, such as my weight and just overall feeling of well-being. I hope I can control these negative feelings long enough so that I don't do anything crazy like quit after 2 days. I know that once I'm there a month or so and get used to a regular business schedule again, I will feel better.

Anyway, I hope I do a good job and that they like my work.

Have a nice weekend!

Moving to Fat Secret (NYCALife) and My Fitness Pal (MarieNYCA).
MARIENOW's Photo MARIENOW SparkPoints: (17,227)
Fitness Minutes: (4,164)
Posts: 1,672
10/13/17 8:29 P

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
Lori, I agree with Miller. Sometimes depression makes us think people don't care when they really do. I have also felt my family doesn't care about me. I know my parents did but they are both gone now. The rest of the family doesn't care. Yet if you were to ask them, they would say that I'm distant and don't care about them. How strange is that? Sometimes there's just a lack of understanding about each other. Maybe like you said, the goal should be to just keep caring about them and eventually maybe they will learn to express their love for you in a way you can hear.

Edited by: MARIENOW at: 10/13/2017 (20:37)
Moving to Fat Secret (NYCALife) and My Fitness Pal (MarieNYCA).
MILLER-S's Photo MILLER-S Posts: 30,011
10/12/17 10:53 A

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
Lori, I don't know your family, but it's my guess that they would be shocked to hear that you think they hate you. They probably love you, but just don't show it. It sounds like they just take you for granted, which often happens in families. People get busy with their lives and forget to let others know they care.

Sometimes my depression makes me feel that others don't like me (and I really believe that), but then I tell myself that it's probably my depression making me feel that way. Maybe that happens to you sometimes, too.

I hope you can find some peace in this situation and remember that your family probably cares very much for you each in their own way.

Miller emoticon emoticon


SPLORI's Photo SPLORI Posts: 6,069
10/12/17 9:32 A

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
Hi,
I am doing better with dealing with the situation that my family that I know , love, and care about, do not care at all about me.
The signs have been there for a couple of years, I just did not want to believe it. I do know now for sure, I am just to love and care about them and any sign of them caring about me is just a show. I am just being more careful of what I say and do around them.

I just wish I knew what I do to make people hate me.

Lori

TOPS Hugs
Lori
Eastern Standard Time USA

Consult not your fears,
but your hopes and dreams.
Think of not about your frustrations,
but about your unfulfilled potential.
Concern yourself not with what you have tried and failed in,
but what it is still possible for you to do.

Pope John XXIII


Co Leader of team TOPS in Sparkpeople
www.sparkpeople.com/myspark/groups_i
ndividual.asp?gid=8008
www.sparkpeople.com/myspark/g


 Pounds lost: 22.6 
0
8.25
16.5
24.75
33
MILLER-S's Photo MILLER-S Posts: 30,011
10/11/17 10:51 A

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
I'm sorry, Lori, that must be very hard. I hope the people in your life will start showing you some appreciate and care.

Miller emoticon emoticon

SPLORI's Photo SPLORI Posts: 6,069
10/11/17 9:53 A

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
Yes it does help to talk about it here. I have to come to terms with the people I thought cared about me and appreciated what I do, do not. I still care for them, I just have to know the care will not be returned. There have been many signs in the past of this by their actions, I just kept thinking it was not true.

I have a hearing loss. I had since second grade. My hearing aids do do a good job of helping me understand the world, but most of the time I need to see people faces to know what is going on. I guess that makes it difficult to be around me.

TOPS Hugs
Lori
Eastern Standard Time USA

Consult not your fears,
but your hopes and dreams.
Think of not about your frustrations,
but about your unfulfilled potential.
Concern yourself not with what you have tried and failed in,
but what it is still possible for you to do.

Pope John XXIII


Co Leader of team TOPS in Sparkpeople
www.sparkpeople.com/myspark/groups_i
ndividual.asp?gid=8008
www.sparkpeople.com/myspark/g


 Pounds lost: 22.6 
0
8.25
16.5
24.75
33
MILLER-S's Photo MILLER-S Posts: 30,011
10/10/17 10:29 A

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
Lori, I'm sorry to hear this. It sounds likes they're really taking you for granted. I'm sorry they didn't even let you finish telling them about how you got hurt from the fall. It sounds like they were so interested in justifying why the dog was out that they just talked over you or interrupted. I agree that you deserve to get a text when someone is there. Is there any way that you could tell them that you Have to start getting a text or you won't be able to do it anymore? I don't think getting a text is too much to ask.

Either way, I hope it helped some to talk about it here. Sending you big virtual hugs. emoticon

Miller emoticon

SPLORI's Photo SPLORI Posts: 6,069
10/10/17 10:20 A

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
I just need to complain again. I go to my sister's house M-F at 8:30 to let their dog out. Many times I have come there would be one of the family members here. I went in one time on my brother -in -law. I saw his car when I got here. After was told not to go in in the morning he might be in his underwear. Other time My niece would be here.I have been informed in the past the she does not like it when I am there. the only thing bad I did to her was was when I could not drive and I walked to their house, it is a mile away, I asked her to go to my house to get me some hearing aid batteries. Mine had died and I did not have anymore with me. After I was told not to ask My sister's family for anything. I was to either ask my older sister I live with or ask my sister's who house I go to. I did ask for a text if someone was going to be there in the morning.

My Nephew found an app for the phone that gives the location of family members. When I got a smart phone I asked him to put it on my phone so I can tell if someone is around for the dog. At times my app. does not work, I pack up my breakfast, computer, toothpaste etc. and go every morning by 8:30 am. The last 2 years it was 11 am. My sister is a teacher so I only go during school.

Last Monday, my app was not working, I think it is my internet. I pulled into the driveway and my niece was here. The dog was running in the yard. I looked at the app and it showed my sister here too. I went in. My sister's phone was not working right. She was not here. I did come in, called for my sister, all the lights were on. There was no answer. I left, The next time I saw my sister she said that my niece seen me leave. When I said I came in because the app said that she was there too, She said she was at school. I said I called out to her and no one answered she said my niece was sleeping. I apologized for going in when My niece was there.

Friday I came, the dog was running in the yard. The app said no one was here. Apparently he let her out before going to work without putting her on her chain. It had rained between the time my brother-in-law left and I arrived. The dog was very excited to see me.

I did check the app. It works better at their house, my internet is a mess. It showed no one here. I let the dog in. When I carried my stuff into the house the dog jumped on me causing my foot to get caught on the step. They have a screen door that slides across the back door, and my food pulled on that. The door did seem to work fine. When I feel I fell on my knee and scraped the top of my foot by the top of my shoe.

The next night I made dinner for them, I brought up the subject that the dog was out. My brother -in-law proceeded to say how he chased the dog and had to leave for work so he left her out. I started saying how it rained, (the dog does not like water) and she was very happy to see me. I said when I came into the house with my stuff she jumped and knocked me down. The subject immediately went back that my brother-in-law chased her all over the yard. No one cared enough to let me finish and say I hurt my self or even asked if I got hurt.

My mind is just racing and racing over this. I make my appointment in afternoon so I can let the dog out in the morning and everyone else is proud that they make all there appointment in the morning.

I know I made the commitment to let the dog out when they got her 3 years ago. I am just a nobody to come and help everyone else.

Last May when my niece graduated I was told I would not have to come over any more for the summer. I still had to come, My niece was never here. No explanation.

I just think I deserve even a text if someone is going to be there, even if they do not care about me. I would like them to go to work and find they do not have to be there, and not able to go in a few times see how they feel. For it is not suppose to bother me.

For no one to even care enough to ask if I got hurt really hurts more than the injuries.

I made a commitment and I will do it, now I know exactly where I stand.

Sorry about it being so long, I just had to get it off my chest. Now I have to come to terms with it.

TOPS Hugs
Lori
Eastern Standard Time USA

Consult not your fears,
but your hopes and dreams.
Think of not about your frustrations,
but about your unfulfilled potential.
Concern yourself not with what you have tried and failed in,
but what it is still possible for you to do.

Pope John XXIII


Co Leader of team TOPS in Sparkpeople
www.sparkpeople.com/myspark/groups_i
ndividual.asp?gid=8008
www.sparkpeople.com/myspark/g


 Pounds lost: 22.6 
0
8.25
16.5
24.75
33
MILLER-S's Photo MILLER-S Posts: 30,011
10/6/17 11:15 P

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
Lori, thanks so much for your reply and good advice. I'm so glad you got your medicine and I hope it helps soon. Volunteering is definitely like work and taking some time off is a good idea.

Thanks again for your kindness and prayers.

Hugs to you, too. emoticon

Miller emoticon



SPLORI's Photo SPLORI Posts: 6,069
10/6/17 10:11 P

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
Hi Miller, It probability not a good idea to go to the same Dr as your daughter. Going to a different one may be more objective. It is hard to find one. When I first moved I had the idea that I should go to Dr. in my area. I found a psychologist near by. He had a hearing loss (like me) He compensated his hearing loss by dominating the conversation. His main goal was for me to leave work and go on disability, I had 2 years before retirement. I now continue to go to most of the Dr. in my old town 1 to 1 1/2 hours away. Maybe with help from your primary, you can find one.

I just picked up my meds this evening, I am hoping they will kick in soon. I think by taking time off of my volunteer work has helped me some. I guess it is sort of like work, I need a break from responsibility.

Still praying, thanks for letting me know about you daughter. She has gone through a lot, and as a parent, it is just as hard if not harder on you.

Hugs
Lori


TOPS Hugs
Lori
Eastern Standard Time USA

Consult not your fears,
but your hopes and dreams.
Think of not about your frustrations,
but about your unfulfilled potential.
Concern yourself not with what you have tried and failed in,
but what it is still possible for you to do.

Pope John XXIII


Co Leader of team TOPS in Sparkpeople
www.sparkpeople.com/myspark/groups_i
ndividual.asp?gid=8008
www.sparkpeople.com/myspark/g


 Pounds lost: 22.6 
0
8.25
16.5
24.75
33
MILLER-S's Photo MILLER-S Posts: 30,011
10/5/17 8:38 P

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
Lori, thank you very much for your response and your prayers. I really appreciate both.

My daughter's first problem was severe and chronic constipation, starting as a newborn. She had to have extensive treatment for it and still suffers with it now as an adult. She also had an auditory processing disorder, so didn't begin to speak until she was three which caused a lot of communication problems. She has Ollier's Disease and had to have four surgeries through the years. She developed obsessive-compulsive disorder in second grade and depression, as well. She suffered greatly with both of those and still has depression to a degree that she can't work. She did graduate from college, with taking a few semesters off for chronic fatigue, etc., but she had to quit her first job because of suicidal depression.

We got her all the help we could all through the years and did everything we could for her, but I guess it wasn't enough. The doctor is right that we began to feel hopeless, but that's because years and years and years went by with no real improvement at all.

The psychiatrist we see is a very blunt person. I don't know that I should be seeing the same psychiatrist my daughter sees anyway.

Thanks again,

Miller emoticon


Edited by: MILLER-S at: 10/5/2017 (20:39)
SPLORI's Photo SPLORI Posts: 6,069
10/5/17 8:23 P

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
Thanks for your kind thoughts and prayers. The pharmacy said they are ordering the meds from another supplier, the one they ordered from yesterday is on back order.

Miller, I do sort of understand your situation. It sounds like the Dr. is very insensitive. It is like he does not know he is treating the family. I do not know what your DD problems are, A child with problems since birth is extremely stressful.

I am praying for your family.

TOPS Hugs
Lori
Eastern Standard Time USA

Consult not your fears,
but your hopes and dreams.
Think of not about your frustrations,
but about your unfulfilled potential.
Concern yourself not with what you have tried and failed in,
but what it is still possible for you to do.

Pope John XXIII


Co Leader of team TOPS in Sparkpeople
www.sparkpeople.com/myspark/groups_i
ndividual.asp?gid=8008
www.sparkpeople.com/myspark/g


 Pounds lost: 22.6 
0
8.25
16.5
24.75
33
MILLER-S's Photo MILLER-S Posts: 30,011
10/5/17 4:02 P

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
Im having a bad afternoon. Saw my psychiatrist who is also my daughter's doctor & he basically said my DDs problems were caused by my husbands & my depressed world view. What he doesn't realize is that from birth on, she had so many problems that Thats why we developed such a despaired view of things. I feel like screaming until im hoarse.

MILLER-S's Photo MILLER-S Posts: 30,011
10/5/17 1:45 P

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
Lori, I'm so sorry you're struggling so much. I hope the pharmacy can get your new medications soon. Be kind to yourself and hold on until things get better.

Miller emoticon emoticon

HILDGARD's Photo HILDGARD Posts: 123
10/5/17 12:04 P

Send Private Message
Reply
I am so sorry you are having a hard time. Call your Doctor and explain about the meds. She will be able to get you some help. It's not good to be in isolation. Praying for you.
Mary (Deland 5)

 Pounds lost: 18.0 
0
7.5
15
22.5
30
SPLORI's Photo SPLORI Posts: 6,069
10/5/17 11:02 A

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
I have been having A hard time for a while. It just keep getting worst. I am worried all the time. I am not sleeping well, gaining weight. It seems all kinds of people are lying to me. At times I cannot stop crying. I wrote an e-mail yesterday and gave up my volunteer work, I have been calling in for the past two weeks. They did say I could come back.
I went to the doctor yesterday, she ordered new medications, The pharmacy does not have it and don't know when they will get it. I just wish I was dead, I will not kill myself, but if something does happen it would be OK..
Today I am feeling better than the past few days, I come on SP and find Motivational Quotes to share with people which does help me some. I feel like I have no friends. and anything I do is worthless. I am trying to figure out the dash diet, it should be very easy, I can not concentrate.
I guess I just needed to complain, thanks for listening.



TOPS Hugs
Lori
Eastern Standard Time USA

Consult not your fears,
but your hopes and dreams.
Think of not about your frustrations,
but about your unfulfilled potential.
Concern yourself not with what you have tried and failed in,
but what it is still possible for you to do.

Pope John XXIII


Co Leader of team TOPS in Sparkpeople
www.sparkpeople.com/myspark/groups_i
ndividual.asp?gid=8008
www.sparkpeople.com/myspark/g


 Pounds lost: 22.6 
0
8.25
16.5
24.75
33
HILDGARD's Photo HILDGARD Posts: 123
10/4/17 9:31 P

Send Private Message
Reply
Miller-S
That's a good idea. I see my PC tomorrow. . Thanks!

 Pounds lost: 18.0 
0
7.5
15
22.5
30
MILLER-S's Photo MILLER-S Posts: 30,011
10/2/17 3:25 P

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
I'm sorry you had a stressful day and I hope things soon get better for you. I have a tranquilizer that I use to help me sleep and my doctor urges me to take it for anxiety during the day. It can cause sleepiness, so sometimes I will just take a quarter or half of a pill. Maybe that might work for you.

Take care.

Miller emoticon

HILDGARD's Photo HILDGARD Posts: 123
10/1/17 9:25 P

Send Private Message
Reply
Today was stressful. DH is back from his summer job. It seems that I can do nothing right. I don't like to take my anixiety med It makes me tired. Praying things will get better. Ate way too much. didn't solve a thing.


 Pounds lost: 18.0 
0
7.5
15
22.5
30
MILLER-S's Photo MILLER-S Posts: 30,011
9/27/17 5:39 P

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
I'm so glad you talked with your husband and the therapist, and also got a refill on your Prozac. All those things should help. I hope today has been a better one for you.

Take care, emoticon

Miller emoticon

HONEYBEAR1031's Photo HONEYBEAR1031 Posts: 202
9/26/17 8:18 P

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
thanks, I went to therapy today and got a refill of my Prozac. I haven't been good about taking it and I need to get better about it. My husband came home from the doc appt this morning and we talked about that and I just broke down. I know he's my husband but I don't want to burden him and he doesn't want me to worry about him bc of mom. Let me tell u though I felt so much better after talking to him then my therapist who did meet my mom bc I did bring her. She told my mom she needs therapy lol. Hopefully, tomorrow will be a better day.

 current weight: 217.0 
224
204.25
184.5
164.75
145
MILLER-S's Photo MILLER-S Posts: 30,011
9/26/17 2:34 P

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
HONEYBEAR, I'm sorry to hear you're feeling so down. It's sounds like you have a lot of stresses with your mother, your job, and school. I don't know if you take any medications or supplements for depression, but if so, you might want to see your doctor for a med check. My doctor supplemented my meds with a couple of supplements that helped. I still fight depression, but it isn't as bad.

Just know that you are not alone. We do understand and we care about you. I hope today is better and brighter for you.

Hugs, emoticon

Miller emoticon

HONEYBEAR1031's Photo HONEYBEAR1031 Posts: 202
9/25/17 11:04 P

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
hey, group. I don't normally post here but I know u all will understand. I am feeling so depressed lately and I can't explain why. I work 3 days a wk 12hr shifts, in school ft but feel like I'm failing bc it's so hard, I have a mother who is mentally demanding and acts like a 3yr old and I just feel broken and want to cry. my husband is at work and I don't have anyone else I can talk to.

 current weight: 217.0 
224
204.25
184.5
164.75
145
MILLER-S's Photo MILLER-S Posts: 30,011
9/19/17 7:25 P

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
Hi Sparkles. Welcome to the team. I'm so sorry your husband makes it sound like things are your fault. It's not fair for him to do that. Everyone is different and we all have our strengths and weaknesses. I'm not sure what he means when he says you "bring it on yourself."

I used to tell my husband that "so and so" at church didn't speak to me and his answer was always, "Well, did you speak to them?" I have social anxiety so it's hard to put myself "out there." Maybe it's hard for you, too.

You're not alone. Depression makes everything harder, including interactions with others, and I'm sure it's the depression that makes you feel like you want to just disappear. I've felt that way so many times. Then I'll start feeling a little better and things will look brighter again.

I take medications and supplements and don't know where I'd be without them, but I understand when people don't wish to take them, too. I hope things turn around for you soon.

Hugs, emoticon

Miller emoticon emoticon


Edited by: MILLER-S at: 9/19/2017 (19:26)
SPARKLES's Photo SPARKLES SparkPoints: (220,957)
Fitness Minutes: (50,392)
Posts: 24,799
9/19/17 7:00 P

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
Hi - new to the team. I didn't do the intro because every time I join a new team I start there, barely post anything because I work alot & then forget anyway, then finally drop the team. I'm consistant on journaling food & exercise, just not teams.

Anyway - I haven't been on meds for many years & am trying to stay off of them. I slip back off into depression, but don't seem to stay there - not in deep anyway like I once was, so not sure I belong here.

And that's kind of where I've been the last few days. Feeling like I'm useless and in the way, and nobody would be all that inconvenienced if I disappeared. In some ways I can see that's not true & know I am not the center of the universe that everyone should always be paying attention to. But I'm realizing how much of a "people person" I am NOT. And how why WOULD anybody want to be my friend.

Just got back from a long awaited vacation with my husband. There were times my husband would barely talk to me, but when a stranger was nearby he'd strike up a conversation and talk their everloving ear off. 2 freaking hours on the plane to the man beside him. Must have driven people around him crazy. But it seems like he's ignoring me more and more. He and my oldest daughter get together and it's talk talk talk talk. Neither of them talk to me that much. And now I say something to him and (not new) he not only ignores me, but even when he does respond, he acts 10 minutes later like we never had the conversation. Hardly anybody at work talks to me either. The one lady who does has been out sick since I got back, so that leaves nobody. My husband has told me before that I have no friends because I am like I am. I don't desire to die, just disappear & cease to exist & get out of everybody's way.

My job is fixing to get busy and I'll be on the phones constantly talking to people and having to THINK. Oh noooo. Today I keep sitting here closing my eyes - nobody's looking at me in my cubicle. This is making me sleepy.

I blabbed enough. Just thought this might be a place I could say what I really feel. My husband keeps telling me it's all my fault & I bring it all on myself.

 current weight: 163.0 
178
168.5
159
149.5
140
MILLER-S's Photo MILLER-S Posts: 30,011
9/16/17 5:34 P

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
MONICA, it took me and my psychiatrist a long time to find the right combination of medications (and supplements) for me and they're still not exactly right. I'm better than I was, though. It does get very tiring to deal with depression, but I've learned over the years that things always get better if I just hang in there. Hoping you feel better soon.

Miller emoticon emoticon


Edited by: MILLER-S at: 9/16/2017 (17:35)
CD17342197 Posts: 341
9/16/17 3:42 P

Send Private Message
Reply
XNanny - It takes awhile sometimes for anti-depressants to work. I started taking bupropion again about 8 weeks ago, and I didn't feel any better for at least 6 weeks. Everyone is different and every drug is different.

What I found is that it may actually be working, but you may not recognize it as such. When my bupropion kicks in, I am just a lot more focused and have more energy to get things done. I'm not exuberantly happy or cheerful all the time, just "normal." When you're used to feeling depressed, "normal" doesn't feel like much of a change at all, when it really is.

The problem I've had with other drugs is that they made me feel flat. I stopped Prozac because, as I told my doctor, "I don't get upset about things I SHOULD be getting upset about." I just didn't care about anything, and if anyone challenged me, I got really angry and aggressive. At the time, they hadn't admitted that Prozac makes you aggressive and angry, so nobody would believe me.

I've taken almost every anti-depressant there is, and bupropion is the only one that worked for me. It took me many years to get there, though. Ask your doctor to switch you to another drug is this one isn't working. We are all different, or we wouldn't need but one kind of anti-depressant. If one doesn't work, another one may.

Hang in there! It can be along journey back to happiness, but well worth it.

Edited by: CD17342197 at: 9/16/2017 (15:44)
XNANNY's Photo XNANNY Posts: 19,519
9/16/17 2:59 P

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
I am depressed, but not anything else going wrong. I have been on antidepressants for over three months and my Dr only ups the dose when it doesn't work. Some days are a little better than others. I am just tired of this feeling.

Monica
Co-Leader Team Tea-lightful
Co-Leader for The Alternate-Day Diet Team
Short term goal: 170
Living in Mankato, MN.


 current weight: 175.0 
198
179.75
161.5
143.25
125
MILLER-S's Photo MILLER-S Posts: 30,011
9/7/17 3:50 P

My SparkPage
Send Private Message
Reply
Hugs to all. emoticon emoticon


Report Innappropriate Post

Other Dealing with Depression General Team Discussion Forum Posts

Topics:
Last Post:
4/5/2021 7:08:41 PM
11/10/2020 9:18:28 AM
3/23/2021 5:40:59 AM
7/23/2021 4:20:56 PM
6/12/2020 11:56:22 PM



Thread URL: https://sparkcleveland.sparkpeople.com/myspark/team_messageboard_thread.asp?board=0x953x64946915

Review our Community Guidelines